Alexis Carpenter - Week 13 Reading Journal [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

11/4/13
The doctor looked away from Ava and told her everyone is just worried about her. Ava told McPherson she doesn't want anyone to worry about her. McPherson then informed that she knows about her not taking her medication and flushing them down the toilet. Ava then became enraged and screamed why was this whole mansion out to get her, and where they all convinced that she was never sane in the first place. Ava told McPherson that she doesn't care if the whole mansion is conceived she is off her rocker and will never come to. She is willing to claim her insanity with dignity
11/5/13
Ava and McPherson have a long moment of silence. Ava starts to point out the differences between the doctor and her. She points out how the doctor has her hair straighten and put into a precise bun. She has high cheek bones and small gray eyes that are in forms of slits. The fire in the fire place reflects off her smooth Beautiful, long legs. Which she has crossed in a professional manor. Ava gets up from her chair and stands in front of the fire with her calves facing in front of the fire. She feels the heat and she can't remember the last time she's felt warmth in her body. Everything and everyone has just been so cold to her in the last couple of years. She runs her fingers through her hair, feeling the ripples of her previous french braids she had taken a loose. Then looks back at McPherson in memory, she used to be like that. A professional and determined business woman ready to take on the world
11/6/13
The door begins to creek open, disturbing the silence. Khloe pushes the door open a little more withe the tip of her foot. Her hands are currently occupied by a sliver plate with a Small teapot and little teacups. She gives a nervous smile and asks if shes interrupting anything. The doctor quickly reassures Khloe and tells her shes fine. Khloe offers the tea and the doctor accepts. Ava passes up the tea, then telling Khloe that she should know she doesn't drink tea. All she drinks is Diet Coke
11/7/13
Later on that night, the maids in the mansion start to prepare dinner. Ava decides to sit at the table with everyone else and enjoy her dinner. Instead of having her dinner brought up to her room every night, just another step of sanity. She ignores the thought of confronting Jewel-Anne for her eavesdropping early today. Ava overhears Virginia murmuring in the refrigerator about her missing diet coke, remembering Khloe had snagged it as an apology to Ava for the tea. Virginia plans to take a plate down to Dern, since Virginia's belief is that a man should never fetch for his own supper. Ava offer to take the dinner down to Dern, giving an excuse that she would like to thank him for saving her the previous day. But her real intentions are to find more information about this mysterious man
11/8/13
Ava began to walk down the path to Dern's headquarters. The fog wall was low tonight and She could hear the ocean's soft roars form afar. As she got closer to her destination, she saw small patches of light shining brightly through his window. As she started up the steps to his patio, her boots began to ring on the concrete. This set off a high alert, and a barking started to sound behind the door. Dern came to the door with his new found dog behind him with a show of fangs. Dern escorted Ava inside, she then took a look around. To her surprise, his condo seems as though he hasn't fully settled in yet. With only a few thing on his dresser and only his bed made. It looked as if he wanted to, he could get up and go at any god given time without any hesitation. Ava extended the plate in front of him. "Virginia thought you would appreciate it if you didn't have to fetch you food tonight." She told him