Beleaf - Suicide Roll [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1: Beleaf]
His suicide letter read
To whom it may concern
I've been on the ledge
For sometime, no one would listen
I bet they listenin' now
Dont start cryin'
Them tears don't belong to you
You had a chance to make a difference
But what did you do?
Forgot me, like everybody else
Now you're reading this, feeling sorry for yourself
It's too late to care
No one was ever there
They just looked at me
Told me I was fat, and I was ugly
Told me I was gay
Last time you hugged me
You said you would say a prayer
Did you forget?
Did God hear it?
I been waitin' for my death, I've never feared it
I never fit in anywhere except my spirit
Am I a Terrorist?
If I take this box-
Cutter
And tear my wrist?
Is there a therapist?
Specialize in this?
Isn't it obvious?
That

[Chorus: Beleaf]
I been thinkin' bout killin' myself
But I'm entertained by how bad my life is
I'm entertained by how bad my life is
I'm entertained by how bad my life is
[x2]

[Verse 2: Beleaf]
I guess it's no ones fault but mine
Feel like I'm runnin' out of time
I guess I'll never be a graduate
What's in this.. medicine cabinet..?
Just some vitamins
Feelin' staggin
If these belts are too cheap
For me to hang myself
I don't know what I'm gonna say to God
When I see him, can't explain myself
Sound like a broken record...
Wait, give me a second
Only if I didn't have a disease
Wasn't infect-
Wasn't infected...
That's too loud, It's too loud...
Callin' out to you if you there
God
Never learned how to say a prayer
A lot of people tell me you care
But if Jesus you're really real
Then I need you to pull me near
This razor blade is about to go ear to ear
And my life ain't that entertaining
It's really just unfair...
I hope my soul is bullet-proof
I know that you are God
And most of my life I ignored the truth
Now I'm sittin' in my only suit
It's like this the only special occasion I've been invited to...

Give tomorrow a chance