Grime - The Lonliest Number [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

I come from troubled times
My minds all fucked up
Two personalties and they both live double lives
I put pen to paper and I come up with some rhymes
And I can front like my life is all ugly and fine
But inside I'm a wreck and it gets rough sometimes
It's been a while since I've been loved and it sucks some times
So I get drunk and shut it all up inside
And pretend to be a man, like the other guys, but I'm a misfit
Really I've always been different
And this shit gets sicker anything is twisted
I latch onto girls, because I'm scared they'll leave
Like my moms left my pops, like my girl left me
So I'm insecure with every girl I meet
Some think its sweet, most think it's immature and weak
So I feel uncertain when it's my turn to speak
So instead of trying to meet you
I'll just finish this drink

Lonely is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
Lonely is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
Lonely is the loneliest number that you'll ever do

To that all white school every day I go
And get called a spik and a nigga on the way back home
So I never gave a damn that my grades were always low
And the girls said I was dirty cuz' I wear the same clothes
So when I try flirting they would always say no
It's the same old story of my life being told
Because the girls like to chase the boys on the playground
And nothings changed; it's still the same game now
I'm like that asshole that don't remember your name
So you don't remember me, so I guess we'll never be
You looking for job, but that just isn't me, so when he treats you wrong
I got no sympathy, I'm sick of playing games; it's weighing on my brain
I gotta drink myself to sleep to take away the pain
This self-conscious bullshits making my insane
Listening to the rain on my window paint

Lonely is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
Lonely is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
Lonely is the loneliest number that you'll ever do

Look, I've been shot down too many times
And now I'm shaking
If I get hurt again, I don't know how I'll take it
I'd rather play it safe, and save myself some pace
I don't ever wanna feel like, how I felt that day
There's only one woman for me, end of story
And she's gone now, so I guess I'll end up lonely
Cuz these other girls phoney and don't even know me
I'd rather be alone with this bottle to consume me
I'm looking for a sole base, someone to have my son
But my boy told me, girls just wanna have fun
That's why he never calls them back after he's done
But she's still the only one don't front
I'll probably never understand that, so ill just stand back
And watch another victim fall in that sand trap
Fuck it, if that's what you want, then have that
I'll probably still be here when you come back, shit

Lonely is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
Lonely is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
Lonely is the loneliest number that you'll ever do