Matthew Sunlife - Twitter Rant (Depression Song) [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1]
Sometimes I feel like Hop like I'm mad at the world with no proper way to vent
And im pissed
Sometimes I sit and I think to myself
Why the fuck am i living
Should i go should i stay
Fuck it I'm tired of all this pain
But something starts to change when i load the gun to blow out my brains
I imagine my brain being sprayed on the walls
But then i picture my mom walking down the halls
Hearing the gun go off and trying to figure out why
The fuck i finally decided to end it all
And her crying worse than a kid in the holocaust
I imagine that the reason I haven't ended it all
And I look around niggas is dead everywhere
Typhoons in the Philippines
And every where else humans live with disease
I'm worth more dead than alive
I could donate my motherfucking eyes no lie
Kidneys but no beans
Plus i don't even wanna be buried so me dying is pretty cheap
Got insurance so my momma will get paid
Never got laid so innocent I'll stay
School's fucked up and everybody knows that they dont me
I'm a ticking time-bomb waiting to get my blast off
I wanna hold the barrel of a gun right to my nose and pull the trigger
But I'll get scared block it with my hand and end up living with a few less fingers a scar on my head and so brain-dead I won't make bread
Pull the plug, plug the plug I'm tired of breathing it hurts
But I'll do it to spite god cause frankly that nigga thinks I'm kinda odd
I've been discouraged by rap just by looking at the future
And Hop Is Back how fucked up was that
That shit made me never wanna even pick up the fucking act
Made me wanna just leave my pen and pad
But I can't and nobody even knows my fucking name (not even the teachers)
Bitches not even with me but drive me insane
Ku Klux Im trying to get some fame
But my songs are garbage
Like Tyler I want to voice to change
Ashamed inane inhumane but I'm not Randy Savage
Dez is off getting signed
Zajic dropped a tape
Is it too late?
I'm a fucking Senior
Just trying to be meaner than that fucked up nigga looking like Stinkmeaner
Ugh
Sad aprt is nobody even realized i was depressed
In their minds i let my grades slip
But in reality I need a morphine drip
Just to smile