Bias B - Now You're Gone [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1]
I know you're looking down on me, are you proud of me?
Or are you upset I don’t spend time with the family?
Or do you understand me, the way I’ve become?
There’s so many things I wish that I could say to you mum
I was seventeen years young when you past away
I found it had after you and Dad divorced to find my way
I’ve cried away the pain, although I didn’t complain
Caught in the middle of the family separation
Was stress in my brain, depression came I don’t know how I coped
Hit the pipe, all my dreams up in a cloud of smoke
It didn’t help but got me more confused
Then I went to stay with Dad when you moved and you were crushed
When I saw you in court after that letter I wrote
The one that I’m regretting I wrote
Felt like you’d lost your son, felt like I’d lost my mum
That was enough and there was worse to come

[Hook] x2
You know I miss you Mum
I really miss you
(Now you’re gone)Now you’re gone
(Now you’re gone)Now you’re gone

[Verse 2]
I never felt so close to anybody
As I did with you and now that I’m older
I understand why people do the things they do
But I was lacking life experience, around ’89 shit got serious
Started with some lumps, next thing I hear is tumours
And everything the doctors tried was useless
Radiotherapy, Chemotherapy, 4th of July ’91 down at the cemetery
Knowing that this day would eventually come
Hope you know what you meant to me Mum
You were the one who said experience the world
And do whatever you wanna do
So I hope you’re really proud of this man standing in front of you
I know you’re watching me and I can feel you at times
You’re still in my dreams and you’re still in my mind
It’s been fifteen years since you left me behind
And I wish you were here now with me, sipping this wine
I miss you

[Hook] x2
You know I miss you Mum
I really miss you
(Now you’re gone)Now you’re gone
(Now you’re gone)Now you’re gone

[Verse 3]
When I look back I didn’t even know you at all
I was still growing up and just a little confused boy
Who never said goodbye when you left
Last time I saw you, Nan told me not to talk about death
On the day you passed away I was the last one called
And when they knew the day before nobody called at all
But you still see me going to Christmas, buying gifts
Doing it for you, that’s what you would’ve wanted me to do
I’m getting through life, yeah and I’m doing okay
Started with you watching break dance back in the day
How funny’s that? And you were there when I first did graff
And you were my inspiration to get out and rap
I miss you so much Mum but I’m not sad and grieving
When I was younger I was mad at you leaving
But the reason don’t matter anymore I still love you to death
And forever after when I see you in the next

[Hook] x2
You know I miss you Mum
I really miss you
(Now you’re gone)Now you’re gone
(Now you’re gone)Now you’re gone