BLCKK - LETTERS [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1: BLCKK]
And if you find my fucking body on the floor
Just know I didn't wanna do this anymore
I used to think about the way that I would pull it off
I'm leaving letters for my family on the door
I try to keep this shit from turning to a war
But all the promises you made, you fucking swore
And I could never be content, I want it more
I send you messages, some more you could ignore
And I was hoping that my mental could restore
This shit ain't my responsibility, it's yours
To be happy, and you wanted the door
But now I'm digging for options inside my drawers
And I can't even focus on the shit I wanna say
I got a million little demons in my head like every day
They don't play, motherfucka, I can tell you that
They got me thinking I should fuck around and pray
They got me thinking I should change the color in the bath
They got me thinking shit that I don't wanna say
(Yuh, yuh)
But either fucking way I'm 'bout to die one day (Uh)
It might as well be now
I ain't got shit left that I could live for now
Keep telling me that I'ma get better, bitch, how?
I ain't waiting no more, I think I want that now
And I don't care what I gotta do
Go through bricks with my bare fucking fists
Just so I could have one night with my family
And look around and not fucking doubt this shit
Is it worth it if I stick around?
I'm causing way more pain than I ever could happiness
Fuck around and hit the ground
I'm taking more people with me if I keep on breathing

[Chorus 1: BLCKK]
And I don't know what your intentions are at all
I feel so small, yeah

[Interlude: BLCKK]
And I don't know what your intentions are at all
I feel so small, yeah
I don't know what your intentions are at all
I feel so small, yeah

[Chorus 2: BLCKK & Lil Darkie]
All my life gon' crash and burn
And I'm out next year, so I hope you learn
That I can't live down what you did to me
But I will not frown 'cause it's meant to be
All my life gon' crash and burn
And I'm out next year, so I hope you learn
That I can't live down what you did to me
But I will not frown 'cause it's meant to be

[Chorus 1: BLCKK & Lil Darkie]
And I don't know what your intentions are at all
I feel so small, yeah
And I don't know what your intentions are at all
I feel so small, yeah

[Verse 2: Lil Darkie]
Yuh, negative energy spread inside of the Hennessy
Many indebted to all my niggas sat in the credit
Did intentions, the few embedded in my temple out my dental
Fentanyl is taking my niggas up all these rentals, ornamental
Parental, please, be gentle, lest I end up you
I like to write my Haikus, that was the last line I choose
I like the sky in my blues, I'm talking cyan chartreuse
I'm getting high with my crew, but steady crying 'bout you
I need a way to go
If you pay I'll show my one true life to you
Pitiful, won't point that pipe to you
Stay afloat, don't see that side, do you?
I need a way to go
If you pay I'll show my one true life to you
Pitiful, won't point that pipe to you
Stay afloat, don't see that side, do you?

[Chorus 1: BLCKK & Lil Darkie]
And I don't know what your intentions are at all
I feel so small, yeah
And I don't know what your intentions are at all
I feel so small, yeah

[Outro]
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