Chieftaine - My Life [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

Verse 1:
When I've finally impressed, why do I feel depressed?
I hope that it'll work out, but too much weight is on my chest
So now I'm waiting, for people that aren't here
Camouflage with the crowd gettin swallowed by my peers
I fell asleep on life lessons, will I ever really learn?
Pro at pointing out my cons, when they shouldn't be concerned
I love love, but she thinks that I'm a loser
Life is goin too fast for a cheap little cruiser
I'm outta control, and life is such a trip
Problems got their foot out, but I've already slipped
When I try to be slick, my hands start to lose grip
Children's Story ends sad when my life falls rick
Somebody show me the ropes, I need a quick escape
I'll leave this hole of abjection, grab my pair of Ice Skates
I'm addicted to depression, this is a relapse
Working on a trust salary, no chance to relax
But I've been taking days off without manager confrontation
Claiming that my heart is hurting so I need some compensation

Chorus:
Ya'll say I'm deaf, When I'm doin the Mos
But it's hard to see the good I do when I'm a ghost
I used to walk through depression, these never ending halls
But I decided to give up, and tried to hide in the walls
They say I'm ungrateful, But I'm really unfaithful
Cuz I know that in the end, my fate is gonna end fatal
Put my soul on the market and it was quickly sold
Last phone call to God but I'm still on hold

Verse 2:
Somehow, after all I've made it here luckily
I'm no longer fitting in like a wet puzzle piece
I'm sick of the pain, change is way over-due
And this cell wall of depression is too thick to get through
I try to hold it in, just until my atom splits
And I blow my composure all over simple ticks
Do you hear what I'm saying? Life, I've got no gain
& my heart is feeling broke when I've got no change
A normal kid with my mentality would smoke to remain tame
Instead I use my rhymes to maintain a sane brain
I dropped my first mixtape to end this nightmare
So I'm brawlin for my dreams but you don't fight fair
Been down for so long, forgot how to be proud
Ya'll focus on my flaws, so I follow the crowd
Calling heaven in a tunnel so I lack reception
God is drafting soldiers and I'm not in the selection..