Crosby - Balcony [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1]
False bravado scattered through my verses and shit
Gonna be Flowing til the hearse is my whip
That may be sooner than later if this don't turn into paper Cause I been working and shit just want a cover on fader and an apartment away from all of the pain and the haters just me and my lady and when I'm 30 a baby
Don't even wanna be rich just wanna spread what I'm laying
You know what I'm sayin?
Been from doctor to doctor
The depression is worsening don't feel like a person just a shell of a serpent
Insomniac to the T, need Valium to sleep, that speaks volumes to me
Heart callus we pumping out no emotions nowadays that's where the fallacy be
On the balcony geeked
Off four loko and keef
Feeling bad for my lady she more deserving then me
But we in this forever the only person to me
Apologize for the darkness this ain't supposed to be me
But this is Braxton speaking
Crosby just a facade I hide behind when I'm weakened
I just lay in my bed faded vibing to weeknd
Let the sorrow just deepen

[Verse 2]
To keep it a hundred I been smoking 100s
Menthols to be exact, they keeping me intact because lately I ain't been thinking straight just lost a friend today
Not in body but spirit, all of her laughs I can hear em
But as the bottle got clearer, We got further and nearer
You don't get it but she will if she hear it
I miss my girl on the daily wait till she heading to Bama, I can't take it It's crazy like why did God even make me
Unmotivated and lazy
Conversations with mama and she can tell that I'm faded
Final exam as I speak, ain't even going to take it
If I'm in public I speak, I'll probably smile but I fake it cause in reality I wanna throw myself in the street but then I think about momma and Aimee, they can't do it without me
So much weight on my shoulders and there's people that doubt me
Wanna prove em wrong but Im defeated on this song
Ex said I'd find happiness I did but I didn't
Cause when my girl ain't around reality becomes vivid and when I look in the mirror all I sees a statistic
Another nigger who wasted all of the chances he's given
Had the world in my hands now I'm a slave to the bitch
Just hope that harnett county save me a ditch. I'm gone