[Produced by Tone Jonez]
[Intro:]
Should i listen to the voice in my head or the voice in my ear?
The things that i envision every time that woman's near
Her touch is fleeting but it always be right here
When i'm surrounded with this passion i ain't ever thinkin' clear
[2x]
[Verse 1:]
She told me "go into this room and they won't ever know about it
Give me all you got
Til the clock stop
Baby, don't worry you know we just messin around," and I'm
Engulfed, surrounded, mesmerized, trustin'
The touch of her skin, desires within, i can't help thinkin' i be lustin'
I got her on the wall, arms around me
Searchin' for somethin' that i can't find be-
Cause it ain't enough, me and her we want more
One more time, a baby might be in store
I reassure myself by givin' everything
Kissin' and wishin' for all or nothing
All my chips in, but i ain't a poker face
Until we outside, real life where i'd be a disgrace
Double life
Yours or mine
Wrong or right
Truth or lie
Feelin alone
Lookin so fine on the outside, but on the inside
Man i just dont know
I hate that i love you like i do
Hate that the pain just feels so good
Wait 'til the very last moment to
Face the facts i know to be truth
Livin' in pain, regret, distrust
So i let it out by lettin' myself be seducted
By the temptress, deceiver
Convincin' myself "no i really need her"
This temporary pleasure i know will lead to my destruction
But everything that's in me's screamin' it wants my baby's seduction
[Chorus 1:]
The voice in my head or the voice in my ear?
The things that i envision every time that woman's near
Her touch is fleeting but it always be right here
When im surrounded with this passion i ain't ever thinkin' clear Fillin' my void, blockin' the noise
Lyin', cryin', tryin' to fight this doubt inside me
Emotions are toyed, seek and destroy
Cheap intimacy, kissin', something's missin', I ain't happy
[Verse 2:]
Lustin' on her
Trust and honor
Empty halls
Against the walls
My head filled with fantasies
Wantin' her flailed on me
Im tryna rebel the
Way i want to feel free
Feelin' her up and down, tryna get around
The feelin' inside im distractin' myself from the fact that i felt like a joke on the inside
I know that i gotta get out of these lies
Start tryna get my life together
But whatever
I got her on me now so forget that im tethered
Or enslaved
Demon pullin' on my brain
Tryna make me go insane
Like i got no control, and this trains gonna wreck
If i dont steer it direct-
-ly back to the track
With a backpack on the back
When i go back to the chit chat, knick knack, mic mac
Read between the lines
But i feel fine
Got a girl on each side
Tryin' out local talent
Thrilled like Jackson
Chezzie got talent
Her love surrounds me like a rapture
Now lets get real, I got two girls, two hearts, two worlds
In my heart i know all this wrong but i push it off like a third wheel
Man i deserved to be named the Playa of the Year
Such a drama king, i feasted on it, i had no fear
My brain was like girls, girls, girls, sex, kissin', kissin', kissin', girls
Maybe one day i'll man up, admit i'm the emptiest i've ever been, just wanna hurl
Into hell
[Chorus 2:]
(I don't know who i am, I don't know who i am)
The voice in my head or the voice in my ear?
The things that i envision every time that woman's near
Her touch is fleeting but it always be right here
When im surrounded with this passion i ain't ever thinkin' clear
Fillin' my void, blockin' the noise
It was all good for a while, but now it just feels so empty
Emotions are toyed, seek and destroy
I need more than distractions and cheap thrills to be happy
[Verse 3:]
What the heck's gotten into me? I used to stand for somethin'
When i check for a heartbeat, i feel an empty cavity thumpin'
What the heck's gotten into me? I used to have some standards
I've been running for so long that i've forgotten who I am
(Who am I?)
Thinkin' that I wanna try again
Man I give it all to Him
Cause I got caught in this web like a fly
Tried to look fly, I got a drive-by
Done flirting with poison, i'm such a mess
Broken so many hearts and lost mine completely in the process
I'm so done with this fake crap, whatever true love is, I'ma search for it, I won't stop 'til I find it
LET'S GO
[Chorus 3:]
Fillin' my void, blockin' the noise
Lyin', cryin', tryin' to fight this doubt inside me
Emotions are toyed, seek and destroy
Cheap intimacy, kissin', something's missin', I ain't happy
Fillin' my void, blockin' the noise
It was all good for a while, but now it just feels so empty
Emotions are toyed, seek and destroy
I need more than distractions and cheap thrills to be happy
[Outro/Spoken Interlude:]
Seeking satisfaction in hedonistic fulfillments spun me into doubt and confusion
All the time I didn't realize what I was really losin'
Searching for a purpose in life without a guiding supernatural entity
Left me alone and hopeless, without my identity
