EKZ - I Give Up [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[VERSE 1]
I casually walk
Down this twisted path that I'm on
My sanity gone
I'm giving up
Towels are thrown
White flags waved, damnit I'm done
What is the point of this?
I'm sick of being sick and tired-
Sick of disappointing the-
People that I'm close to
I struggle and I toil to-
Keep inside the heat, like the foil do, for ya food
My mood would boil you, if you ever came near
That's why I keep it away from my peers
I hold the rear
Out of fear that I'll one day blow
And no one close to me should ever have to take that blow
That's why I'm distant
I funnel everything through the rhyme, before I spit them
So when you listen you feel it, without personally witnessing
All the hurt I bottle up
Troubles keep on lining up
I try to keep composure, while my happiness is dying out
I'm honest about things that most people lie about
My heart is on my sleeve
Why the hell I gotta hide it out
Of everybody's sight, let 'em see it
Maybe then they will begin to see that
I'm only trynna be that
Taaj Alon that I know I am inside
But its hard to reveal when circumstances arise

[Hook]
I give up!
There's so much trouble in my mind
There's no remedy to find
Everything I see is lies
Every time I get up!!
Don't wanna open my eyes
Just wanna go back to sleep...
Don't wanna be alive anymore..

[VERSE 2]
A person's eyes can only SEE what's in front of them
So if I don't show it you'll never SEE where I'm coming from
It's cumbersome and I admit
Hard to hold up
Imagine living 20 years with it on your shoulders
Kid on the inside, exterior grown up!
People that don't understand just tell me to grow up
Hold up
Stroll a couple steps in my shoes, I bet you'd fold up!
Under the pressure
Feeling depression in ya dome cause..
There's something wrong with you but you can't pin the tail on it
All that you can do is write and try to pen a tale of it...
Chronicling real events, trynna vent
But people call you emo, as if you're be-low
And so inferior..
Got you hating the man in the mirror cause
Not even with miracles
Could you please the eyes of America
Parents try to say put up a barrier
And never care about what they say because it's all about the interior
But that doesn't stop the demons from tearing at me
Every morning, afternoon and night
It's like they're attacking
Throwing feelings at me to defeat the happy
It's all mental
That's why I'm rapping
It's therapy on instrumentals
Cause I...

[Bridge]
Feel the dark on my back its pullin' me down
Trynna scream for some help but no one's around
I'm so alone in a big crowd..
Please save my soul.. before I

[Sub-hook]
Give up!
All the beauty in my mind
And start to believe the lies
And become paralyzed (before I give in)
To the darkness inside
That's taking away my shine
And making me write rhymes talking 'bout

[Hook]
I give up!
There's so much trouble in my mind
There's no remedy to find
Everything I see is lies
Every time I get up!!
Don't wanna open my eyes
Just wanna go back to sleep...
Don't wanna be alive anymore...