Eligh - Attracted to Pain [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

The same inadequate feeling I have
When I was 9 in love with the (acre?)
That come up when you are around me
Envy jealousy sadness lack of confidence
Compiled into an extensive list of defects, I still feel like a reject
So I must eject your madness
Cleaning out my cabinets
Taking my key set back to (heart?)
So you can (look to me for?)

Deep emotional struggle
Stain the canvas of my psyche
Nice guys finish last
That is the case with you and me
Nice lies finish fast
I'll also race (for 4 star of truancy?)

So late to the dance
I'm 31 your 21
Should have known better
Should have run away when I spotted you
But I entertained my appetite for pretty lips
Let my ship sink yet plotted to get over my attitude
I guess I got to much to work on to fuck with ya
Take a picture of my condition and bound it in your memory
Sweetness can't compare to aggressiveness
When your messing with damaged beauty, sleeping
All my instincts
I need to listen
It takes a lot to feed a fish and keep it alive
I will survive and I will improve
I will fuck up when i'm in the mood
I tell myself I like the pain
When I hit the pain
I state my name in a picture frame, in the hall of shame, but that's not the case, so I must refrain, from your game
Its not the pace I want to run
I want to face my emotional demons
And now and then they creep in, but I will not let them stay

HOOK X3

There is something wrong with me
I don't know what it it
I;m attracted to what hurts
The most (?) shit

Give it to me baby hut my heart I like the scars
I guess I haven't learned my lesson yet

Feel me on this verse
Its a blessing a curse
To think from the heart first
Hold the mic with confidence
Then step out into the light and drink
Used to fight it with a bong
Now I highlight it and move it on

(Needs work. Will update more later)