Epidemic - In My Life [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Hook: Foreigner - I Want To Know What Love Is Sample]

In my life, there's been heartache & pain
I don't know, if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far
Can't stop now

[Verse 1: Epidemic]

Went on vacation, niggas rearranged my whole house
Came back, feeling like a stranger in my own house
Fade to black, like a candle that'll never blow out
Maniac, for every page of rap I ever throw out & through out
I could've sold a million records no doubt & sold out
But now I'm on a different level, no route
That could take away my art could ever really make me happy though
I'm cold hearted, +departed+, +DiCaprio+
Cabriolet in the rain, I'm backing out
I, +May weather+ the storm like Paquiao
Until the day that I'm gone, I'm blacking out
Black on black back against the wall, no backing out
If you could only feel the pain that I felt
You'd cry a fuckin' river, I turned into Mike Phelps
I'm going for the gold my nigga so why else
Would I go through all of this myself, tell me

[Hook]

[Verse 2: Epidemic]

I took a razor to my wrist, surprised that I don't bleed
Got ice up in my veins, never gotten cold feet
I've danced with the Devil, this was back in '03
Last chance, so I got these angels tatted on me
& I can't ever love or have a matrimony
Sweetie don't take it personal, that's what it's gon' be
I just got it from my daddy is what my mammy told me
Even if I made you happy, chances are you can't be
Wherever you want to be, whatever you want in me
I am never gonna be, this is my apology
This the way it ought to be & I'm meant to be alone
Only bitch I treated right was the one that did me wrong
& it's driving me insane, I wish I could press rewind
Want to +charge+ it to the game, but I know I'd get +declined+
& some things don't go away, no matter how much time
So I live, every day, with the pain, in my life, & I swear

[Hook]

[Verse 3: Epidemic]

I'll never know a bigger pain, than the day I lost a brother
Started out one in the same & we were turned against each other
I was never jealous of ya, I just wanted us to blow
So I let you have the shine, at every time in every show
Then you pushed me to the side & didn't want to share the glow
& it took me by surprise I felt I had nowhere to go
Then I went around the globe, & when I came back to the states
It was all about you, now how am I in 2nd place?
In this race, a disgrace that neither of us won
We didn't even finish, but the damage was done
You was acting like a star, you thought you were the sun
& it hurt me in my heart, to see what you had become
& I blame it on the drugs, even though that you were high
You knew what you were doing, I could see it in your eyes
So the day you walked away, how could you act surprised
That I didn't go too dawg, you had to realize that

[Hook]