Franklin Ribli - Testimony [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

Just a little kid drowning in imaginary thoughts
Of being in love, I never wanted to be alone
It was twenty o’ nine, poured my heart out to a white girl
She told me I’m a freak, I should get my hands off her
But I never had bad motivations
Loving her was my only intention
She ripped my card and it changed the way I viewed the world
And the way I looked at love for the whole time

It was twenty thirteen, all my friends are in relationships
Found a new girl, thought that she'd be different but
All women are the same (yeah the same)
Maybe I’m rushing it
Maybe I’m faking it
I never wanted to fake it, I’ve always tried to be myself
But I have to face it
No one would love me if i only be myself
It’s twenty fourteen

Alone at home, watching Game of Thrones
While my friends are away at the movies with their dates
Maybe deep inside, I’m still craving
For the kind of love I’ve been dreaming of when we’re still children
But I’m denying it, I’m okay on my own
14 years, but I’m never satisfied
Looking for something I can’t find
And my heart’s still horrified
I’m forever paralyzed
Oh god

Cause what’s the point of living if there ain’t love?
What’s the point of love if it ain’t love that you’re feeling
I feel so misunderstood
I need you to come and find me
Oh!

Time and time again, I’m still searching for the woman
Who'll make my dreams true, and I thought that i had found her
But she don’t feel the same, no, I’m not dropping names
She was one of a kind, I want to make her mine
So bad!

Cause maybe if I get her
I can finally sleep at night
Have a little peace of mind
And l will feel alright

But she said, “Finding a man should be the least of my worries
I won’t start looking till at least I’m in my thirties
And you’re a good guy and I really hate to say this
But you’re just not the kind of guy for me.”
Yeah, that really broke my heart

It’s twenty fifteen
And I’m already in love
She’s the only one I’m thinking of
I told her I’m in love
But she don’t even know what love is
And my feelings are forever unrequited
Disregarded, unreciprocated
Oh how could a woman be so heartless!

I began to hate myself
I wanted to be someone else
Anybody, anything
Different body, different skin
I just need someone to love me
I need to feel understood
Cause now I feel so left out
Neglected by a world that's so self-centered
Set aside, pushed aside by exclusivity
Like there’s no one there beside me
Pressured by a society of always being together
I can’t do it on my own

And it’s almost Christmas day
And romance is in the air
You can see the lovers kissing in literally everywhere
But my Christmas is the same as it was last year
It’s just me, myself and I
Partying to Sufjan Stevens
And that’s the moment I realized
That no woman can ever give me
The love I’ve dreamed of, if I don’t even love myself like that