GoldSoul - Manzanita [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Produced by GoldSoul]

[Verse 1]
Clear the mind with cigarettes, alcoholic beverages
I recollect on times I’ve been depressed, can’t say you incorrect
Demons they just manifest, dreams they just been oppressed
Lately I’ve been feeling stressed and all these pills don’t have effects
Last night I sent God a text, I said “give your ass a rest”
Much as I don’t wanna admit, couple weeks ain’t feelin’ shit
I might just chug down a fifth, roll more weed up in this spliff
They say ignorance is bliss but for me it’s hard to forget
I’m sorry I’m not a man, I’m sorry I’m not a leader
I’m sorry you don’t understand, I’m sorry that I had to leave her
But she had to save herself, you might as well do the same
All I know is time will tell if I can ever explain
These burdens I carry like the son of the Virgin Mary
Dodgin’ sermons I’m lazy but I still write some verses daily
And lately I’m a contradiction pennin’ all these compositions
And I only kinda get it while I get confined within it
Today a prodigy is an oddity, prophecy be mythology
Probably need an apology if I don’t meet the policiy
But I ain’t stressin’ ‘bout that, I’m stressin’ ‘bout rap
And how I focused on it too much to even call my grandpaps
He died yesterday and now my grandma going next
I won’t even get the text ‘cause I’m focused on being the best
My people never make it out here on all of theses streets
Robbin’ for swishas and sneaks, leave blood on Nike Elites
And if there’s a beef, there’s a feast, even took my man’s receipt
All you hear is shrieks if you coming outta Kathleen
You hop outta that whip you just got from the dealership
It’s like a drug, you take a hit, you got coke if you need a lift
That’s all the opposite, the reason you dodgin’ opposition
Competition, if you get caught then you’re in our position
But my homie caught some hollows, two missed, two grazed him
The final one hit him, now he spillin’ on the pavement
Brains like some fried eggs and he sizzlin’ like bacon
Two weeks from graduation now he prayin’ for salvation
I look back inside my dreams and that’s what makes my inspiration
Tryin’ to be a 23 before meetin’ a 22 at 21
If I ever have a nightmare I’mma break some expectations
Before I trip up and end up the victim to the barrel of a gun
I’m scared I’m gonna die and I always fear rejection
If I never go outside then how I know my own direction?
The mind’s flawed, filled with thoughts that I ain’t want
And the time’s gone, so before dawn will I head home?