HelioS - Nineteen? [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

Verse
Nineteen? That's what it bleeps
I hit Facebook; that's what I'll see
The posts will come, the happy Bs
So insincere, why do they sting?
I'll check my phone the entire day
Looking for her text, imagining her face
Her curved lips with the red curls
The same curls that framed my world
Now they are gone, anger keeps them away
I know now nothing I'll ever say...
No! Push it all away!
I need my head clear to perform this play
I knew way before I reached this age
To reach heaven, there'd be hell to pay!
...And a nigga stackin' up
Cutting my fingers, cause you know I'm countin' up
Fuckboys duck; you better rally up
Cause I've got this mic and you know I'm tallying up!

And this beat sounds like Club Paradise
With its mellow flow, I watch rappers fly
Out the woodworks; claiming they're the best
"Look at me! I've got a story to tell!"
Don't we all? My story's worth a ear
It's about hope, the implications of fear!
Guilt loaned with so many tears
The ambition in my bones for a better year
I want this...I want this so bad
I'm willing to do whatever I can
...For a life there, I'm willing to sacrifice my life now!
My friends ask me "What's cracking?"
And I tell them, "I'm rapping" X 3
Know this:
I disappeared to make things happen!

I knew way before I reached this age
To reach heaven, there'd be hell to pay
And I'm stackin' up...a nigga stackin' up
Cutting my fingers, cause you know I'm countin' up
Fuckboys duck; you better rally up
Cause I've got this mic and you know I'm tallying up!

My mother won't be here today
Since the first time I turned another age
My mother won't be here today
SEMESTER DoS is coming. It's got no expectations
It's got nothing. But I've got expectations
Best body of work in a long time. If ever
Nineteen...nineteen
Friends ask me "What's cracking?"
And I tell them, "I'm rapping"
Know this:
I disappeared to make things happen! X 3

This social suicide is unfortunate
But I disappeared to make things happen
To get to heaven, there'll be hell to pay