Hunter Kozak - There's No I In Insane [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

My demons are screaming
And my feelings are brewing
I'm seeing the beast in
Me, it's seeming unassuming
But the beast in me is scheming things; I know it can't be stupid
I'm a cretin if I'm thinking while I'm dreaming, I'll be lucid
Cuz I'm seeing things that honestly the conscious me is scared about
The demons are releasing every thought that fought to wear me down
Just air it out, take a breath
Think of things you care about
The list goes on and on
But I don't know if I can bear it now
I'm barely loud, but screaming
And I find I'm feeling ruined
My brain is so unsure
Of what my mind is really doing
And my heart's sick
So I write cuz writing is cathartic
Fighting from the arsenic
That's poisoning the artist
They say to see the light, you need to also see the darkness
But when the light leaves
It shows how much I'm in the dark

Get rid of these cacophonous voices
I guess a coffin is noiseless

I'm sick of my mind
And I'm sick of my thoughts
I'm sick of saying I'm fine
Even though I know I'm not
I'm sick. But I'm not insane
I'm not. Okay?
I'm not. Okay?
I'm... not okay...
I know I'm not okay

It's getting madder, pressing pressing matters to my matter
Get me feeling madder
Matter fact, sadistic patterns
Getting louder in my head
Pretending nothing is the matter
Growing powerless instead
My train of thought crashed
And the billowing debris
Seems to burn and turn to ash
That's somehow filling into me
And inwardly, these demons are unusually abusive
But I'm fighting them off by being musically reclusive
The noise drowns them out by being beautifully intrusive
It seems dying and living were never mutually exclusive

I'm sick of my brain
I'm sick of the insanity
I'm sick of the way
They look when everyone examines me
I'm sick. But I'm not insane
I'm not. Okay?
I'm not. Okay?
I'm... not okay...
I know I'm not okay

But let it go
Find a better road to heaven, though
It's hard to think it's possible
Just keep alive and redefine
Your worth and every obstacle
And here's depression;
Color it with iridescent lighting
Fade it out with hope
And now the fear's regressing finally

Because it's okay not to be okay