Internal Definition - Internal Affairs [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Intro]

[Verse 1: Internal Definition]
What more could I really ask
Sitting back in this two thousand dollar a quarter class
With my iPhone buzzing, future texting me back
Like slow down lil homie, your timings coming relax
But relax ain't a word I can swallow, I'm getting thinner
Show my Dad he bred a winner, cost of being a sinner
Missing my family's faces while sitting her eating dinner
But that's the cost of success, you lose it all tryna get more
But wait a minute, why success come with more stress
I thought life was suppose to be good living in excess
Express these feelings because rap is my only outlet
Hope to change your mind about me if there's any doubt yet
Never time to give my Grandmother a call back
Still find the time to respond to your little blog chats
Real issues scaring me, so hoping your hearing me
This is my real life, that fake shit you'll never hear from me

[Hook]
My train's leaving and I don't know when I'm coming back
I know you miss me (uh huh)
I know you miss me, know you miss me, know you miss me (Hol' Up)
I hope you miss me, hope you miss me, hope you miss me
My biggest fear's you'll forget me
My life's speeding but I hope I never hold you back
I know you miss me (uh huh)
I know you miss me, know you miss me, know you miss me (Hol' Up)
I hope you miss me, hope you miss me, hope you miss me
Just promise you won't forget me

[Verse 2: Internal Definition]
Stress is constantly consuming me
Feeling out of body like watching my own eulogy
Falling like the leaves as I get bigger like the trees
Burning deep is misery, burning like marijuana leaves
Mixed with glitz and glamour and this Southern Cali swagger
When friends turn to foe dogg, what does it really matter
Lost a best friend who I use to tell everything
Know you still hearing me, missing you more than anything
But wait a minute, why they seem to see me different
Exactly who I use to be, at least who I pursue to be
Investing in myself, I'm not talking about internally
Talking about the view of me I wanna show this industry
Losing focus of what my family means to me
I'm just tryna be a Top Dawg like Willie B
Feelings run deep as I bored my train to destiny
Life is like a test, welcome to the university

[Hook]

[Verse 3: Internal Definition]
It's feeling like fourth and goal
I remember when changing the world was my only goal
What about me and my future son, how I'm gone feed a kid?
What about me and my girl dogg, where we suppose to live?
Is she ready for the challenge of her man up on the road?
Only taking her calls late nights after them shows?
Constantly stressing if her life is really on that track
Because once I get my break girl I'm gone and I ain't looking back
But it's crazy because your the one who inspired me
If I had to choose now who's holding more weight inside of me
Of course I'd say it's you, these feelings building inside of me
Probably tear us apart if I didn't rid them apart of me
Damn, but I promise we gone make it
Anything you wanted I promise that you'll be laced with
Just accept the sacrifices it's gone take me to make it
Watch a dollar and dream turn this man up into greatness

[Hook]