J Trauma - Under [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse]
Livin life like a zombie, all these drugs be up on me
Got no names on my sweatshirts, bitch fuck Abercrombie
Got no cash in my pockets, blame the blood in my sockets
Suicide on my mind, I grab the 9 then I cock it
Nothin but a recluse, my last resort is this noose
I can't lie outta shit, they see through every excuse
So I go back to my room, write and sleep it all off
These haters waitin on the day that I fuckin fall off
Mane I gotta keep rappin, truly my only passion
Maybe make somethin happen, maybe see some lights flashin
Don't really care for the fashion, I need some dough then I'm set
Kick start myself a career, and help my momma with rent
If you think I'm nearly done, well I'm only just startin
Yet I still can't believe I've taken a fuckin part in
This shit we know as a game, to some it's competiton
And to others it's their way of life, to some it's just the bitches
And I'm gettin so high, my surroundings be lookin like glitches
And I need some fuckin money, tryna go from rags to riches
My pants ripped like ASAP, these bitches can't phase that, they always scream J Trauma but you never hear them play that
You look at me and smirk, you glare at me and laugh
But I don't care, I just wanna make some music and smoke some hash
I'm just tryna get this paper, bruh, I'm tryna make it fast
If I can't support myself, then who knows how long I'll last?
To be honest with you and myself, I'll never make it
Fuck it, I'm just a kid who's not a legend in the makin
And my shit is mediocre, and it's far from amazin
I'm just hopin that one day it leaves some jitts in amazement

[Hook 2x]
Tryna get above the ground, but I'm trapped under
Beggin for them sunny days but all I get is thunder
Tryna fall asleep but lightning strikes disturb my slumber
I got a little tipsy but I'm tryna get drunker