[Verse 1: James Watts]
If you ain't live it you couldn't feel it, so never judge me
A sunny disposition even when the weather's ugly
My black cloud needs to find a new place to get comfy
Make a new home for itself, cuz it can't be above me
Childhood is gone, golden years are getting nearer
That made me get more honest with that man that's in the mirror
In all truthfulness, I'm sad, I'm feeling bad
My ambitions ain't reflecting my life, it's getting weirder
To say I wanna be a star, I ain't chasing fame
I'm tryna duck the limelight nowadays, to make my name
I let my art speak, in hope that that'll make a change
Not just for the listeners, I'm trying make a better James
Better aims, brighter sun, don't harp on, whatever's done
Friend, foe, either or, I wish the best for everyone
From the failure I might face I'll forever run
Fight hard today, as if tomorrow will never come...
[Hook: James Watts & Rocki Evans]
It's like I am going crazy, and I don't know who I am
I been reaching out for someone, thinking they might understand
But that man up in the mirror, always reaches out his hand
With that smile on his face, I know, he's my only friend..
[Verse 2: James Watts]
My greatest enemy is my inner me, I'm warring
I lived the brightest nights, and woke to the darkest mornings
A twenty-something feeling like done lived twice my age
Nice with the pen, so it's logical to put life to page
Without a front of house unit, I'ma light the stage
Just me, being alive, could mean a brighter day
This for the laid off, with no funds coming in
Graduates with resumes, by the phone wondering
The man with the floor that the bank pulled from under him
Roof done caved in, along with his savings
The bills is unpaid, and they shutting off the lights again
To find paradise, we need something to fight against
This for the struggling, single parent mothers and
The fulltime employee-slash-grad student, juggling
Everyday suffering
9-5 hustling
Holding on firm to their dreams, though it seems like...
[Hook: James Watts & Rocki Evans]
It's like I am going crazy, and I don't know who I am
I been reaching out for someone, thinking they might understand
But that man up in the mirror, always reaches out his hand
With that smile on his face, I know, he's my only friend..
[Verse 3: James Watts]
I seen the low life like Lauren, and highlights from the high life
We rise and we set, like both sides of the twilight
And my life is just like yours, a little bit of both
I wrote the aforementioned lines to give a little hope
Plus threw in a little "dope", I'm high off that
My words, they come with wings, you could fly off that
I feel like been chosen - in that, I'm just supposing
But I can't explain any other reason for these flows, and
Composing, the music you live by is my current aim
I did a rain dance and I came out with a hurricane
While trying to explain all of these feelings I felt
I tried to hold em' like the bad hands, they deal, and I dealt
My pride, denies itself, even needing the help
He never lightens up, he tightens up, and squeeze in his belt
They said he lived without faith, given knees that ain't knelt
I don't ask if you believe, I just believe in myself...
[Hook: James Watts & Rocki Evans]
It's like I am going crazy, and I don't know who I am
I been reaching out for someone, thinking they might understand
But that man up in the mirror, always reaches out his hand
With that smile on his face, I know, he's my only friend..
