Jeff Spec - I've Been Trying [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

{Trying to understand why}

[Verse 1]
You know lately I've been trying to get it
Where I'm going. Why I'm heading that way
Why I keep the most high embedded -
- inside the rhymes. So what's my religion?
Just across the booth is them islams, and fuck-the-systems
My ex-girl wonder why I left her
I wondered why I depended on her. Had to ask if I'd be better -
- on my own. And that's getting to be a lot of questions
But I'd me alright even if this is goodbye forever
You go from talking what kind of wedding -
- to saying who moves out, and who get's what
It's messed up
And I'll admit I felt lost, even cried a bit
Thinking 'bout the plans we made. Even retirement
I need a psychologist. Maybe psychiatrist
Somebody to prescribe some shit. I can't describe this
I need a psychic. Nah, I need a scientist
Tell me what's happening in my heart
Look inside of it

[Hook]
You go uh, ah ah, uh ah
{So sincere...}
You go uh, ah ah, uh ah
{That I believe you loved me...}
Yes I do. You know I do
{Can't understand why}

[Verse 2]
See, I thought I had it figured out
The early bird get the worm
The rich man get the model chick and ?? her out
The love the rapper with the big ego, bigger mouth
What is it about? You got the answer – give the kid a shout
I'm trying to navigate the mazing you do
But it's a stone cold world. Got me dazed and confused
Hard to balance doing me and tryina play by the rules
Never waited for my turn when I was making my move
Gave very little of my knowledge staying in school
So yes I'm a drop out, quitter, and a cop-out
I talk educated though. Collar still pop out
Sweater still clever looking. Doing what they said I couldn't
And that's the stuff dreams are made of
This is soul-food for thought. Something you need to play ??
Feedback? Yeah I'll take it all. Hate. Love
But no indifference, and please no fake love

[Hook]

[Verse 3]
Pops said be a lawyer. Moms said be a doctor
So you go to school for a while to keep 'em off ya
At least I did, but no degree, no diploma
Tryina make it through the world – shit you gotta be a boxer
Stay up on your toes. Don't let these people stop you
They hit below the belt. Now, that ain't even proper
I'll make something of myself before I need a walker
Your girl used to diss me, now she fin to be a stalker
It's funny how the tables turn, but never think you're better than no one
Shit, we all the same. We all made of sperm
I see this money like it's made to burn. Mistakes like they meant to be made
You live and every day you learn
I got questions. Wonder if God can answer them
Why I get that cancer, man? Why you take my grandma? Damn
My memories caught her face like a camera lens
And I know I'll see her again when I get there

[Outro]
{Keep on trying}
{So sincere}
{I want to go with my heart}
{That I believe you loved me}
{Keep on trying}
{Keep on trying}