Kidd prodigee - I wonder [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[verse 1]

Black man runs in with a black mask
Gun pointed and he asked where the cash at
Fuck that, all i wana know is where my dad at
Scratch that, yall don't really wana hear this flashback

Why this nigga always making sad raps
Am i suppose to make shit for yall laugh at
If i don't take my raps serious, who else will
Fuck gettin scholarships, id rather take a record deal
Hah, i always wondered what it feels like
All i know is when it happens, it'll feel right
This moment right here, yea it feel nice
Like way back when i bought my first mic
Dam, all the pain that i held inside
Suicide thoughts that i kept in my mind
How you ever felt that you're losing your mind
Have you ever felt your illusions alive
Yo Bennett where the raps at
Hey MacXVII where my dap at
Just turned 17, where the cash at
Outside school sellin CD's in my backpack

[verse 2]

Dam, we gotta eat right
And im all up in the stu makin beats right
Dealers all up my booth, makin beats nice
So when the money come through, we gotta feast right, we gotta feast right
I stopped writing for a long time
I even prayed to God that ill never live a lie
Told my therapist that i ain't wana be alive
But ain't it real funny how God works sometimes

Nails done with yo pretty ass
But you never on time, whats the deal with that
No sleep cuz we up all night
It'll be a long ride, better hold on tight, better hold on tight
Takin pics from the chest up
We can have a lil fun til i mess up
Takin shots till she popped in that x pill
Body look good and lips taste like nestles
Lights off, make a movie baby
Wax on, wax off, we can do it maybe
In the booth til my phone die
All i need are my beats, let the world die, let the world die
But this is all a dream
A dr.king speach is really all i need
No worldstar, no flashy things, my life through a filter is all i see

[verse 3]

Mercure, Cap, Dame, Ezito, and even Devin
I got love for you all but im tryna murder you niggas
This ain't even a diss but im still holding the trigger
Never contemplated this cuz its way deeper and bigger
Still slept on, try and get em out of bed
Waking up at 5 so that i can write instead
The old me is gone, "dead"
I said that i'd never change, yea im blessed

Keep it goin, keep it goin, let the beat live
Take in every breathe i release til my lungs give
Laptop, ipad, beats on my mic stand
Ima keep on hittin every beat like a drum kit
And i ain't even gotta ryhme
Like Donald Glover said "There's a million ways to shine"
All this work, ima show my grind
Makin hit songs, i ain't even in my prime yet
And shout out to all the kids in the projects
Cuz one of them will be a hero in the process
Goin off the top, impromptu, aloniz
Writin all these raps man thats how i keep my time spent
Never hate the player, its the game
I use to blame it on my name even tho its still the same cuz its common
Remember 07 watchin late night toonami
Its been 7 years please remind me bought my father

I still blame that nigga for Bianca
I still kinda wish i had father
But whatever doesn't die gets stronger
While we're alive, just survive, go longer
I still wonder what this means to me
I still wonder what it means to be
I still wonder if it's make believe
I still wonder if it's meant for me
Still writin up my plan
Still tryna find my brand
Back in 20 12 with that knife hand
Thinkin back now, what knife could've did
What that knife could've did
I could've died that day
But God couldn't do me that way
So as long as im safe, ima stay