K-Rino - My Laughs [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1: K-Rino]
My head snapped in the worst trap, I see my foes taking dirt naps
For years I've been running full speed but I'm just finishing the first lap
Is life really about coming up? Or is the purpose really about love?
Trouble real easy to get into but it's hell getting out of
My childhoods all gone now, it's tough standing on my own now
I miss staying in my momma's house gotta keep remembering I'm grown now
Got struggles that I got to overcome and mountains that I got to go beyond
I'm staggering, disoriented, feeling all spaced out and I'm the sober one
But I made it through a lot of long years it's like the moneys where the wrong is
It's bad when that devil's on your shoulder, but some days I be on his
I'm steady walking down the wrong route, I don't smoke but I'm zoned out
The streets ain't got nothing on the war that I'm fighting in my own house
From sun up to when the sun's down, my hearts weighing bout a ton now
I exploded like a bomb sound, everybody telling me to calm down
But I won't stop until I get enough, my stress cup keeps feeling up
I'm acting like I'm happy, but I'm about to go insane cause the pain's building up

[Hook]
If you only knew the days I've had
The tears that live inside my laughs
Come grab my shoes and walk my path
The tears that live inside my laughs

[Verse 2]
Am I frustrated? Extremely. Dirty analysts they wanna screen me
I've got a storm brewing in my mind but you'd never know it you've seen me
See I've never been a cutthroat dude and I've never been too fly to listen
They say that nice guys finish last well I'm guessing that explains my position
Cos other than this deep harassment, I be shoveling through hate and madness
And theirs trouble in my mental cabinets, smiles covering my inner sadness
Tryna empty out my whole song vault, been hit up with a lot of thrown salt
My daddy told me 99 percent of things that happen to you are your own fault
I'm hated because I'm not manipulated I waited til my mind was liberated
I made it possible for other cats to make it but the love was not reciprocated
And it's loading up because I never vented, I'm getting more aggressive by the minute
And I don't care how good and generous you represented, everybody got a limit
I lost touch with myself it's gone, I'm disconnected like a telephone
I'm tolerating what your saying but I'm thinking please leave me the hell alone
Some peace I was looking forward to and patience is what I'm showing you
Man, I don't wanna take it out on you but I'm about to click from what I'm going through

[Hook]
If you only knew the days I've had
The tears that live inside my laughs
Come grab my shoes and walk my path
The tears that live inside my laughs

[Verse 3]
All my with and I prayed my inner strength I displayed
When my confidence was hit by a relentless brigade
Yeah I spent what was paid every cent that was made
Flashbacks post dramatic memories bad events were replayed
I was lynched and betrayed, though I'm meant to be saved
But through it all for my God I will represent unafraid
I never bent and never laid, hate they sent was like a blade
My existence in the game others tried to prevent but I stayed
There's no pacifying, the whole world is dying
But whose gonna be the one in you, gonna wake up that lion
And break up that dying, fist up those eying
Miss who keep trying to posses them their defiance
Meanwhile I'm just trying to fight with the powers of my own vices
Everybody walking 'round lifeless they ain't knowing every second's priceless
A civilization in a crisis, wish that I could turn on a light switch
Tryna get my name on the right list scared to bust at 'em cause I might miss

[Hook]
If you only knew the days I've had
The tears that live inside my laughs
Come grab my shoes and walk my path
The tears that live inside my laughs