Lil Deezy - Summer night [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

{verse 1 }
As a man I used to smile to cover emotions
As an artist I brag to cover painful moments
Your desire can turn into the devil's lasso
I'm stuck in a maze, rolling like a desperado
They always say that it's bros before hoes
But you find out that the hoes are your bros
When ''I love you'' is related to vodka bottles
And there's as much singles as fake couples
We send affection to reasons of our tears
Good intention, bad decision: teenage years
Impress worthless people with the unnecessary
Nothing is promised but a tomb in a cemetery
Trade a dream life for the one waiting for you
Thank God I found my motivation in a booth
My life is squeezed in every one of my quotes
But memories are knives; I can't remove from my throat
{Chorus}
Writing in my summer nights
What I live in the winter days...
Hoping that my mum's alright
To the place where she at today
Make sure I keep all my promises
But I'm still young gotta learn a lotta shit (x2)
{verse 2 }
With my sister at the other side of the world
I hope nobody will steal the smile of my little girl
You're too young to understand mama's suicide
Depression and rental payments ruined a life
This ain't only a song but a teenage confession
Table full of bills and daddy's antidepressants
Love is an illusion, if it is for the need
Love is a reality for those who believe
A hidden part of me gets bigger in every song
In the booth, missed calls from dad on my phone
Stressing me, saying don't miss me when I'm gone
I felt suicidal, because I was all alone
Life was defined when I saw your casket
Unconsciously filling a seal, but I cracked it
Will I put on my heart hatred barbed wires?
Sometimes I feel I stand alone in this choir