MdRuckus - Internal Conflict [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

(Verse 1)
(SHIT) Literally I'm a little bit liquor addicted
Licking the liquid inside of a fifth of gin was getting a little bit too delicious
But a variable of my conscience seemed to be locked in competition
(WITH MY) dishonest complex
Living condition was pretty awful (FUCK) livid and toxic
Intolerable to fathom the state of man who lives in vomit
Waiting all day to get wickedly wasted faded away from problems
Never to fathom, or even imagine, the simple proSPECT of a rehab stint
And sim-pl-y put I began to laugh when I was asked this
I would gobble a couple of oxycottons and get passed it
Then pass out, when I wake up, and I lay down, but I'm still drunk
Off a bottle of 1-5-1, I can taste it on my damn tongue
(FUCK) it's like I'm in dejavu, well the fuckin day is new
But it feels the same as, last time I was brain dead, a base head
Waking up faced on top of pavement
With a case of nasty shakin'
But fuck it I'll face it it's not dejavu it's every day shit

(Hook)
I'm a little bit fucked up, and I'm losing my mind (losing my mind)
Losing my mind (losing my mind), too soon to die
I'm a little bit fucked up, and I'm too fucking high (too fucking high)
Too fucking high (too fucking high), too soon to die

(Verse 2)
Livin' la vida, sniffin' the coca, dipping unfocused, sim-pl-y loca
Doper than opiate like I been lower than low is overdosin'
But I don't wanna be adiosin', sippin' the potion
Til I been broken devoted to nothing, well a ghost is gonna become my motive
I wasn't becoming somebody that's great, haven't been making a name
Like a disgrace, my rep is a little bit tainted call me a basket case
Damnit I think my fam-i-ly hates me, fucking insanity made me wack and crazy
My vanity plagued me when I was just a baby
Humanity raised me to mature, liquor delayed me and I'm sure
Virtually, nothing could come between me, and a bottle of jack or tab of LSD
Wit' a dash of ecstasy, recklessly ending my wretched existence fuck it just let me be
If you're tellin' me get right, better bless me, wit' a tech n9ne
'Cuz I'd rather be six feet deep, when I'm dead high, than alive clean
I'm walking a fine line in between, rotting in apathy
And finding a God who can get me to stop, and save me from a savage beast

(Hook)
I'm a little bit fucked up, and I'm losing my mind (losing my mind)
Losing my mind (losing my mind), too soon to die
I'm a little bit fucked up, and I'm too fucking high (too fucking high)
Too fucking high (too fucking high), too soon to die

(Outro)
We have an emergency......WE HAVE AN EMERGENCY
A young man is passed out with a nasty gash on the ground
We believe he may be.. a victim.. who is unfortunately, down for the count
He's passed out.. with a nasty gash under his left eye brow
Somebody please send an ambulance STAT
A couple of his friends are panicking and rambling about the fact
That he drinks a little bit too fast, and are paranoid
That he might have alcohol poisoning, from Jack.. and a case of Pabst
They believe that he probably.. needs to check into a local rehab
And eventually.. he may be able to get his life back on track
He's lucky.. that he didn't break his skull open when the police entered his dorm
He stumbled to hide a bag of hash and boom.. smacked his head on the floor
Pray for this young man.. he was lucky this time, but next time.. he may be damned
For now.. our medical staff will pump his stomach.. so he can function
But in my opinion.. he cannot keep drinking, or he will eventually.. die