Mr. Maddox - Proud. [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1]
That bad young muthafucka
Never knew his dad young muthafucka
Gave everything that he had young muthafucka, but he never made no one glad
Muthafuckas
Acting like it was just whatever whether weather tore me down or it made me get my shit together
Living life like it was better but you better believe being down was the regular
Show time. I'm like Mordecai
Blue, but that's shit that I gotta hide
Putting it away cuz I gotta make you niggas proud
Gotta live up to the name niggas never know
Niggas never know how ashamed I be feeling cuz my feelings feel wrong
Pray to God that you never hear the lyrics to this song
I'll never make you proud cuz I been on my

[Chorus]
Worst behavior
I'll never make you proud
Letting my feelings out now
Muthafuckas never loved us
Wait til you see me at the top
Imma make my damn self proud
Imma make my damn self proud. Muthafuckas never loved us
I'm a bad nigga anyway
Never had nobody anyway
All I ever do is let you niggas down anyway. Muthafuckas never be proud anyway

[Verse 2]
Make milli's for ya famila
Well you should since ya music is so illy, huh?
Be silly. Act giddy
Whatever you gotta do to please us
You don't need no bitch since you gotcha mama
Maybe making money might make you stay from the drama. Chase the commas
Getcha knowledge
Just do what I say cuz you ain't go no power
Man fuck that shit, I'm Maddox the Great
I'm my own entity not a puppet that you raised
Just wait, just watch. I can make it my way
Doing things I desire
I'm in dire need of liberation
Lady luck's a little too late for my aiding
Imma make it. Keep me out your conversation
Finna find a way to flee from that fake shit
I guess I'm on my

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
I've taken time, toiling away so I could make you proud
Put away the pieces of me that I knew would make you frown
Fixing up my fucking fantasies so they could fit your style
Still I'm struggling so you gon hate me when I get up out
This is not to one in particular
Y'all got a unit, I'm just an individual
Looking at your centerfold life thinking what it'd be like if my square peg self would ever fit inside your hole
Wholehearted hopes of having happiness had me having to keep myself in check
But honestly it bothers me that my family doesn't notice they're the reason I'm depressed
Do I chose my own happiness and cause them some stress
Do I say fam is best, I rot and get no rest
Look to God "Is this just a test? Do you know what's best?"
Feel like shit for questioning him, left with more regrets
I'm even letting God down
I never held him up but the shit that I been doing doesn’t make him proud
I could turn to smoking loud, but I'm better than that
I've been doing fine without
I hope karma doesn't kill you crazy niggas
Been doggin me but deep down I know I need you niggas
Won't say though cuz I'll look like a child
Sucks, but it seems I'm happier when you not proud

[Chorus]
You say I'm on my worst behavior. I guess I can't make you proud
I know I need God now
Did you niggas ever love us?