NaeNae - Cleaning Out My Closet [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

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Yo this might get a little personal, or a lot actually
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Yo look, growing up I was never really civilized
I was always the kid, skippin school, smokin pot, gettin vaporized
An ill-judged crook, out runnin in the streets
Always thinking imma make it somewhere with these fucking beats
Tryna make some money doing some dirty deeds
See I ain't never shoot no body
But I'll pull the trigger if you fuck with my posse
I never really had no real friends tho so I turned to drugs
Got hard into them, using and selling to thugs
I was always sneaking out with guys, and telling major lies
But this is all after the sexual abuse started
I mean i can remember most of it but its a bit spotted
See it's difficult to open up those scars that never healed
But ill show you most of the secrets i concealed
It started by him saying about how beautiful I was
Sayin how it wasn't fair we was cousins, that it was bosh
He told me one day that he wanted me to be his wife
He tried to work his way in between my thighs
I punched and kicked and begged him to stop
I started bleeding cause my cherry just popped
I was scared to tell the truth cause i was afraid they'd just blame it on youth
It happened so often that my mind started feeling foreign
My mind went into dark places, fucking distortion
I didn't wanna live anymore so i tried committing suicide
As many pills as I took, I honestly should've died
And I really regret not taking just a few more
Living life always knocking on closed doors
It continued on for quite some time
This is my way with dealing with it, speaking in rhymes
My mental state just worsened everyday
I had plans of death in every crooked way
I imagined going on a killing spree, then I'd just flee
On a chase with the feds, eventually shooting myself in the head
Two years later down the road, he was still continuing on with his pathetic show
Then the truth finally came out, word got around
I solemnly swear that none of this is a lie
It feels so good to get this off my chest with a heaving sigh
Then it was publicized, that's when they finally sympathized
He got locked away, come to think of it it's almost his last day
Scary thing is that he said, soon as he gets out, he's gonna slit my throat
Damn... guess I'm fucked, sorry to end it on such a bad note....