Man, when this Ferguson shit hit it really frustrated me. It really fucked me up a bit. For a lot of reasons. One, one is that… When the deaths happened it didn’t really bother me a lot. Because I’ve been so… when I broke it down I was sitting there like man, yeah, people get killed by the cops every day. You know, niggas get killed by the cops every day. And so when I broke that thought pattern down, like why is it that important that we’re all getting killed all the time? Like my homie just got killed, you know, what was it? Like a week before Ferguson happened, and so I’m like but that didn’t hit the news. And this thing, he just got killed by the police and he didn’t even have a gun on him. You know what, so I’m like that, it fucked me up in my head that I was so desensitized, so numb to this shit happening that I didn’t give a fuck, I genuinely- I gave a fuck but I really didn’t give that many fucks honestly. And so it was like, that bothered me
And then I started seeing other things. I started seeing all these people talking and people that I thought were like, you know, that- well I mean that were my homies. People that were white, people that were black, people that were half white, half black. People that were all different types of colors who started to talk about their frustrations. But they started to- their kind of inside closet racism started to come out after these events had happened, after these conversations had happened. And that pissed me off, because it’s one of those things were I know that racism exists because I’m a black man in America. I look black, you know I’m mixed with all different types of things just like every last one of you niggas is too, but the thing is that when the cops pull me over what do I look like? I’m a black man. You’re a black man, you’re a black man, you’re a white man. You know, so that’s what- that’s how we’re judged
But, when I saw all these different friends of mine, acquaintances posting these different things, all this hate and racism that they had that was closet, it was like damn! Because everybody walks around, you know especially being from like out here like in Seattle it’s like, everybody feels like oh you know we’re so advanced, you know, we’re so cultured, we’re so diverse, you know, we love everybody. And it’s like, you know, we have an understanding for everybody, but it’s really not at all. And that’s why I always say man I’d rather go like down when I’m out in New Orleans or out in Alabama and by [?] where you got know racists who are like “I don’t like niggers, I don’t like Indians, hell I don’t like myself cause I got a little Indian in myself.” You know and it’s like that they’re open about it. But over here it’s like a little quiet. And then I feel like, just the whole world’s getting really quiet about it. And then when this happened everybody starting speaking up about the things that really frustrated them. How they really feel, how they really feel that this race is inferior, that this race of people are fucking up, or this race of people are going and tearing apart their own city, this race of people, we shouldn’t go and support them cause this, cause they did this this and that and all that and it’s just like damn!
So my biggest thing is it’s so much stupidity because how I was raised and how my nature is is I have no racist bone in my body. Because you have to be stupid to be a racist. Or ignorant or that was the way that you were trained up. You know and I can understand you, I can still rock with you. If you’re racist and you’re open about it that’s cool. But you’re still a dumbass. Because there is no such thing as race. There’s only one race. It’s the human race. You break our bodies open, look at it, check our DNA, we’re all the same. It’s one race, it’s not like he’s over there and he’s the missing link and she’s over there and she’s some advanced alien over here or some shit like that. It’s one race. We just have these social constructs that we’ve created, these different colors that we look at, and we’re judging everybody over it
Even in America it’s different than a lot of other places. A lot of other places they’re not really racist, they’re nationalist. Where it’s like if you’re from this nation, fuck you cause you’re from Turkey, fuck you cause you’re from here. We’re like fuck you cause you’re from here, but fuck you because you look like that. It’s just some off the wall fucked up shit, you know what I mean. If you go and look at Dr. Seuss, he kinda puts it out there the best. He got this book called the Sneeches. Go look it up. It’s where all the Sneeches half of them have stars on their bellies, half of them don’t have stars on their bellies. And then they go through this machine and they start getting surgeries back and forth, tryna get stars, tryna take stars off. It just speaks on this social construct that we created, were it’s like it’s popping to be this, it’s popping to be that. This isn’t cool, all this shit
I just feel like at what point, what year are we gonna look back at this and just realize how stupid we were? It’s like looking back at those pictures of people that were gathering in large groups, laughing and singing while they were lynching black men. And when you look back at those pictures, you know that was very recent. You could take pictures of them, that was very recent. When you look back at that, that’s somebody’s grandma, that’s somebody’s grandparent or whatever the fuck, maybe somebody’s dad also. It’s like, that looks so stupid, that wouldn’t be allowed. You wouldn’t just be able to walk outside and see niggas hanging from trees while people are clapping and shit like that. So, at what point do we look at things and look at how stupid we are, and how stupid we look?
