REAMS - Breathing [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

Verse 1:
Try look for the positives
All I see is a crook breakin' promises
Colourless
Everywhere that I look and go
Is it obvious? I don't really wanna know
See myself in the mirror, and I hate it
Liquor in my mouth, man, I really gotta change it
Who on earth is this person I am now?
I just wanna close up the curtains and blackout
I cannot go any further, a man down
Deep in the dumps, just blurred in the background
Rain clouds hang close like a bad smell
Way too much, tryna cope in this mad house
Lips to the tip of the bottle
Don't waste one drip, yo quick, where the funnel?
Too right, had a bit of a night, ya see?
Don't know where to stop, now I'm feelin' anxiety
Gotta get a grip, but I'm slippin', my arms are weak
Caught up in the mix, it's a little bit hard to breathe. *damn*
If I ain't sippin' on lager drinks, heart starts racin'
People will laugh at me
Every part of me achin', burnin'
Won't stop comin' til I taste some bourbon
Wasted, slurrin'
To mates I'm a burden
Locked up in chains
Court cases lurkin'
How the fuck did it come to this?
I wish that I could travel back to when I was just a kid
There was no worries in the world
Never worried bout a girl
Now everything's a problem
Man, I'm fallin' into hell

Chorus:
I'm just so sick of the life that I am leadin'
Coz every single day just feels like I'm not breathin'
And even if I change my ways today
Would I remain the same or would I fade away? [x2]

Verse 2:
This ain't life, this is more like a death trap
More like a war, pure morbid
A jet black
Get back
They told me to get back
Always ignorin' the warnings of red flags
Stress-packed
Exhausted, like jet lag
Sad thoughts form like the spawn of a pet rat
Neck snaps
Horns on my head
Life upside down like the corpse of a dead crab
Regrets stacked
Attracted to bad vibes
Mood flat as happiness collapse like a landslide
Hands tied
Dracula vampire
Swoop down, attackin' from the back like a magpie
Cloud nine? nah, trash like a crash site
Pressure gettin' right up in my face like a sandfly
Damn, tired, tryna wait, here on stand by
For the day I make my escape and I flatline
Capsize in the middle of the ocean
Clingin' onto little bits of paddle that are floatin'
Soul broken, feelin' no emotion
Swiggin' on a bottle full of whiskey til I'm frozen
Lonesome
But nobody even cares
Nobody's even there to try and pull me from the wreck
Deserted
Way beyond tryin', I'm over this
Work my whole life and have nothin' to show for it
Fuck that
There's gotta be another way
Gotta be a time when I don't gotta see the colour grey
I'm afraid of this person that I am
Feels like only yesterday the world was in my hands
It's been so long since I've had a bit of joy
Got my wits screwed off
Yo I cannot see the point
Of rejoinin' this earth when it treats me so ugly
Pushed to the dirt coz he thinks he's above me

Chorus:
I'm just so sick of the life that I am leadin'
Coz every single day just feels like I'm not breathin'
And even if I change my ways today
Would I remain the same or would I fade away?

Bridge:
So many bad things in this world
Too many wounds that will not heal. [x4]

Chorus [x2]