Ri¢h - Forever In My Mind [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1: Ri¢h]
Why the fuck do I keep thinking you could save me
I'm fucked up in the head, I already know I'm crazy
Family gives me shit, cuz they just think I'm lazy
No one's saying nothing new, that's why nothing faze me
I'm learning nothing new, life ceases to amaze me
More fascinated with my death, I think about it daily
And when I finally do it, know it wasn't very hasty
Cuz my home is 6 feet under, I've been welcomed in by Hades
Looking up at the night, loner stargazing
By myself, with my thoughts, why I stay blazing
Thinking about the past, man those really were the days then
Parties with my friends, felt like life was just the greatest
Fast forward to the present, feels like now the party's vacant
In my mind I know that there's no place for my displacement
I just wanna know why I feel so goddamn forsaken
Am I not worth much, should I sell my soul to Satan?
Would he even take me in, a pathetic fucking vagrant?
Or am I doomed to limbo, with my life beyond salvation?
Took an eighth of shrooms, and I had a revelation
I'm my only problem, cuz I've lost all motivation
Suicidal temptations, wonder when I'll cave in
Should probably leave a note cuz they'll wonder why I gave in
Keep running from my problems, but there isn't a safe haven
And there's no end in sight for my depression, quote the raven
Nevermore
Nevermore
Nevermore
Standing on the sands of Night's Plutonian Shore
Had my chance but I fucked it up before
Not another single night, quote the raven
Nevermore
Yet you're still always on my mind, quote my raving
Forevermore
Forever in my mind, quote my raving
Forevermore

[Verse 2: Ri¢h]
You're forever in my mind
All the fucking time
I just don't know why
Can't fight, no matter what I try
I just wanna die
Please take me while I lie
In the middle of the night
I don't wanna see the light
Unless it's at the end of the tunnel
In a perfect world, all we'd ever do is cuddle
But this is real life, you and I are not a couple
And all the troubles and the struggles
Bury me underneath all of the rubble, no--
Time for my shit, everybody brought a shovel
No time to hear me out, think I'd rather stay muzzled
Confused about this life, it's one hell of a puzzle
Keep joking 'bout my death, don't know if it's very subtle
Can't talk sense to me, seems like all I've got's rebuttals
That's why I don't get help, frustratin' til you give up
My friends all probably wanna stage an intervention
Feel bad when I avoid em, but I just can't fucking face em
So I
Stay hidden away
Yeah I got a little problem
But that's for another day
Cuz at night, in my dreams, all I ever see is your face
And it's just you and I
In some faraway place
I think about your voice and it's like a lullaby
It's when I wake up, that's the most I wanna die
The only better dreams I have are where I take my life
Cuz that's all I really want, not this bull where you're my wife
Cuz we're not and we'll never be
I can't get that through my head
Bullet leading me
(Gun cock)
Sorry, that's selfish
Should've kept that to me
Those are just the thoughts I have
Between me and this tree
See, there's no process to my thoughts, I'm just crazy (for)
Your name would fit right here
But I've been thinking lately
That I shouldn't call you out
Cuz this shit is way too heavy
Yet I can't help but wonder if maybe, just maybe

[Outro: Ri¢h]
Like maybe if I would've done just one thing right
Just one thing right
(Just one thing right)
Royally fucked up our night, I must apologize
No king, a jester kept hitting your eye
Though it hurt me the most cuz you were center of mine
Now everytime I think of you
That night comes right back to mind
Wasn't no surprise when you left me with goodbye
Never got you your gift, I'm all talk, rap shit, but if I had one wish upon the stars tonight
Mr Clean Magic Erase that night