Sam Mackey - Stuck In Self-Pity [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1: Sam Mackey]
I'm not too sure where my heads at
Thinking about the can and the can't
Am I just sitting and waiting
Reserving my self-destruction
For the right life malfunction?
When the events present
Will I be able to clear my mind?
And decide what's truly relevant?
To run my nose into that line
Or stay deprived and help my sister love life?
You would think it was simple
And that's why I'm vengeful
Attacking my self out of shame
And that's the price paid
Cause roads given made too easy
And in no prosperity and a large fleet
Prepare for battle and just know
Your best weapon is the ability to avoid putting on that dramatic show
Honesty and modesty
Are difficult cause I attention seek
And once I get what I've danced for
I'm gone to the next dancing for more
I believe your beliefs cause I don't know myself
The way I feel isn't matting with the sounds of my mouth

[Verse 2: Sam Mackey]
Stuck in self pity
It's your fault the pinch feels free
Convinced me this is true serenity
An excuse followed to the dirty city
Shame and worthlessness is why I smoked
Thought I was worth less than this ten dollar toke
And I used that last line to make me feel okay
About where I ended up, lost and astray
Stuck in yesterday
Push this in and get blown away
I'll be right back to the feeling of the unfortunate, forgotten, unloved one
Down in the gutter eyes to the sun
In my hand lays a gun
Not to the head but to the veins
Believe my made up lies of how I won't be tamed
This is where pity leads us all
Up and out of the gutter we will have to crawl
But hey, why not make the most of today?
Instead of training my mind in a complacent way
Left down and out with concerns of what the ladies will say

But hey, why not make the most of my health?
Instead of hurting and abusing myself
Stuck with thoughts of how to gain the most wealth
But blessed with the knowledge to stray far from that rout
I'm looking for a good place to sit
Breathe and light another cigarette
I contradict myself all the time
Sometimes I'm so far gone I believe my flesh is bread
And my blood is wine