Sirius - Recrudescence [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

My life began when you found me dead beneath my solitude
Unburied me, taught me how to breathe and so I followed you
Felt like a lucid dream, a simple little hollow truth
It all seemed too good to be true until you got me to believe in you
Got me through and kissed all my bruises
Your gentle lips filled my wounds with bliss
You reminded me how to smile
In return I gave you my frozen heart
That I once promised to protect the moment it fell apart
But in response you rejected, because you knew it was cold
I drowned as you released it out of your angelic hold
You flew away without a scent
I waited in hopes for your return
Until I grew impatient with common sense
Eventually I ran in pursuit to catch a glimpse of you
For I could cope with my fractured heart that is sick and blue
You turned me into a zombie desperately searching for a life
Don’t know what’s wrong with me; I’m losing all my might
Step by step until I began to bleed
Night by night as pandered deep into a horrific dream
Walking half asleep, I slipped off the edge and failed fly with these shattered wings
I closed my eyes, bit my lower lips, and wished for death
You heard my silence, dove into the depths, and saved me once again
I took a breath, opened my eyes, and wondered if this was heaven
But it was only serotonin

We slept side by side as before
You held my broken ribs close
I melted as you caressed my skull
When I awoke you fluttered away once more
I’ll never forget your voluptuous wings
You left me one thing, a note in blood to be sung. It said
“Something’s aren’t meant to be. Cut your heartstrings
And you’ll spread your wings eventually.” *echo*

So here I am
Just another scapegoat singing an angel's melody
Aiming to end the regret in me
Painting a way to cope with memories
Composing her hopes and dreams till I'm dead and free

I’ve woken up
I’m done bleeding from your silver tongue
You’ve used me like a loaded gun
Shot me through your blood as an escape from the corroding sun
You’re atrocious
Your black lips felt like shattered wishes
Caustic from the ashes of burning dried rose bushes
You ravaged my wrist when I failed to catch your thousand blown kisses
We walked, laughed, and held hands on paths where moths danced against the wind
I once thought you were different
But I was dead wrong
I should of never opened my palms for you
I’ll keep my fist closed tight, bite my lower lip till its rived, switch the lock of my door this night
You’re a demonic witch I’ve angelized
You stumble onto me when you’re drunk
From hearts you’ve riddled with lies
Vomiting out their blood
I almost drowned in the flood that spewed out of your eyes
I’ve seen you flutter around fallen soldiers
Enchanting them with your masked ambrosia
Until they’re hypnotized and you decide to take a bite from their shoulders
Like a vampiric vulture
I’m caught between the boulders of your mistakes
I’ve had enough of your torture
You modified the promises we made
I’ve crossed my heart for you
You tell me to toss it to the frozen curb
When you’re hiding who you are behind another face
But now I’ve seen the truth
You’re uncomfortable in your own skin
No wonder why you carved the body you’re imprisoned in
Now It’s over
I can see clearly through your maze
You’re just a whore who burns flesh
Until it fades
I preserved this mess long enough
I quit being a pawn to your game
You can have my tragic turn
Instead you chose to waste your blood down my drain
My lesson has been learned. I’m never falling for it again
I rather walk alone under the rain
You’re no longer a part of my concern
Your innocence has decayed
I don’t care if you get what you rightfully deserve
I’m moving on to another page
I won’t be there next time you slit right through your nerves
I’m going to soothe my palms to a new day
I’ve broken free from your curse
This is my goodbye to your archaic ways