Sommy Lovell - Growing Pains [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse]
I swear this me man my nigga all I got is my myself
Yesterday I had debts to pay and I regret to say that I lost your help
Is anybody out here?
They got me hanging on like they out there
It's funny how we're taking different routes here
I got here off my sacrifices, if anything turning my back suffices
Shit ain't hit me 'till you said that I just look lifeless
My grandfather passed this year, hearing him talk was just priceless
Matter fact the only one left is she who gave life to pops
Can only imagine the impending reaction
Probably never ever understand the passion
But I got mine and I'm aware that some grow without them like that's what's happening
Sometimes you gotta think of others even when it seem that it's all crashing
Man it took me forever to muster up the will power
Dark places like Con Ed had killed power
My eyes red, jumping off towers
Watch me land in this fake puddle that's filled with shots like they poured 'em out
Feeling like they ain't genuine 'cus they want their spots so they force 'em out
Man I swear I don't recognize, the man in the mirror don't testify
The man in the mirror put his parents through it
Bust they ass to put me in school and I'm second guessing just going through it
Am I blind or is the vision clear?
Future so bright and at the same time it's terrifying
Ain't guaranteed so I spill it here
Love forgive me but I'm tired of having this shit forced on me that's when it hit me
I was strong about it man my mother really brought her best and she left it with me
And she working that double time, father grinding way before my time
Immigrants in this fucking jungle, long roads and we had our stumbles
Still all the way from when guests arrived
Talking 'bout how we losing touch with how we meant to rise
A product of your kids westernized, just Americanized
And home really ain't home now, swear I never felt more alone now
Had to put the game on postpone now, used to need them loans but I'm grown now
And what's sown now, I hope you reap it
What you hearing from me I hope you keep it
Just outcomes that spark how comes and them ghosts talking once doubt comes
I'm working too hard I suffered too long
A couple I do right I bunch I did wrong
If we could make it out of this place
Then we could find the spirits we had misplaced
They try to dictate the road to take but fuck your torch or coming up short
I'm running up court, the same Iso for years nigga never changed sport
And my old thang just reappeared but this time I'm empty
I can miss We but God can mislead if I can misread the sign he sent me
Knowing damn well you really can't tell when all them words we overheard show
The moments pass 'cus shit never sets in until we're gone and our words go
The worse met bad with countless setbacks from hell then went back
The minutes we get back are spent to catch up on present days
Know I'm rarely present for the better days
Nowadays it's just money spending, no spending time
Isn't this what our lives about?
The revolving doors in and out of stores
For material things 'till out time run out
Fabricating exteriors for interiors that just ain't correct
The issues lies within tendencies I'm still trying to fix before the last chance
'Cus how can I be in a room of family feeling like I simply just can't connect?
The distance in between loved ones, if I could shorten it before the last dance
Paranoia plus narcissism, OC disorder and a heart that's missing
Worried about when tomorrow comes
We just glossing all over the part to listen
Nothing left but this life I'm chasing
We're just waiting 'till the lights are fading and glamour's closing
But for now just crack a smile man the camera's rolling

[Outro]
And I feel like I might go insane
And I feel like I might go insane
And I feel like I might go insane
But you tell me in time it's just growing pains
And I feel like I might go insane
And I feel like I might go insane