The Verbal Surgeon - How I Feel [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

Does it make sense to preach real rap
Knowing the majority doesn't appreciate that?
I used to seek acceptance, but I'm learning from life lessons
That solitude is bliss so cherish every second
I'm conscious of my self destructive traits
Stuck in a mental loop when the sky turns grey and the sun's hidden away
I wonder where it runs to
Learn to express yourself, never let emotion run you
I do my best to cope and stay alive
Keep my chin held high walking through the battlefield outside
Dodging land mines and watching bridges burn
Aware and concerned for what lies ahead when the page turns
How does one distinguish reality from a dream
When nothing is what it seems and I'm caught somewhere between
Being hopeless and hoping less
Hoping just, someone can relate to what I've spoke of yet
Sick of the loneliness isn't that hypocritical
Realization is pivotal at times seemingly pitiful
It's dangerous how bad habits can become rituals
I've seen the prettiest have the ugliest principles
No man's invincible, that's something I learned young
Father around, but never around his own son
I'll reopen these scars to show you that it's real
Let you know the deal, I'm a human this is how I feel

3:54 in the AM; solitary in my room
Instrumentals playing; dutch split, weed consumed
Paranoia in full effect under the winters moon
This colder weather alters thoughts and changes my mood
When I think about the actions of my past
And look at how I've grown, all I can do is laugh
In retrospective of those who said I wouldn't make it
I'm nearly 20(I'm 20 now) and for all I know this world is mine for the taking
So what's the next move to make?
Many paths in front of my face, wonder which one to take
In life I'm seeking knowledge on how to relate
But I'm feeling like the chapter in mine has been erased
I need to escape, find a way to clear my mental space
Clouded judgement is fuel for actions to become mistakes
The reality of it all is one is all it takes
That's why I play my position and learned to know my place