Timing - So Many Tears (Thugs Cry Too) [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

When I was younger, in 5, 6 and 7 years my Mom used to tell me that one day she will die
I was a little kid, and the only one who from his birth knew that one day everybody will be dead, and I cried
I was a little kid, and that was for me the biggest kick, I was very sick, I was so vulnerable, no truth to seek, I was with open heart and soul, with the heart that was so big
Now I'm grew, and even if it's so few years
I remember every, as a child, my tears
It was very crazy years, and that crazy day in 6 years when my Mom asked "will I bury her"
Like stay flow, say words to slay slow, I thought she's talking about lay low
And I told that "never", I didn't want to kill
Maybe it is hurt, but I thought about killing, and pain I felt and feel
Everything that touched to death, I screamed 'no'
Everyday of my childhood was so
Every morning with crazy beats of heart
That maybe today my mother can't to wake up
Every day near with her, every evening with her, so some ones thought that I'm a sissy boy
But for me death was very bad thing and maybe even now, but it is not so actual, I didn't want a toy
All I wanted a better life of my Mom, thought if she'll die I will kill myself
Cuz the biggest drama was that all my life I lived with mama with no dad, and there was not somewhere help
If I'd lost her
So many, so many tears
But now I have no fear
Though I walk through the valley of death
I shed so many tears if I should die before I wake
My pulse rushin, send my pulse into insanity
Shout at my cousin now we bustin if they yo' family
The coppers wanna see me buried, I ain't worried
And it's maybe around 10 years nothing can make me nervous
Nothing have a meaning, and everyday what I'm seeing
It's like I'm without feelings, I don't need millions
I would never gave a dollar for the life
I have a goal to strive, and better I've showed you my skills and gave that dollar for the mic
But no one give a chance, the world is bug
Where is the love? Never quit my ambition to thug
Ain't shed a tear since the old school years of elementary
The last time it was maybe at the age of 8, that was the years I hate
But still homey keep it real, how does it feel
To lose your life, over somethin that you did as a kid?
And didn't get the things you need
No merciless to me, and no apologize to yours
You don't even know what is a drama, but when it rains it pours
Where's the end of my misery? Is there a close?
I suppose that's why I murder my foes!
I was like a psycho, from the childhood I thought only about death
And I was in one step of decease, because of my bad health, and we had no and have no wealth (Well)
I didn't ever have a cry, but in my crazy childhood I cried
Sometimes I think better in 4 I've died
I saw so many dies, no, it's not lies
But never cried for it, sometimes suicide I want it
But there's no something bad in tears, everyone at least once in the life cryin'
When something goes not for its line
No rest, no rest in it, no rest in the world, is it just destiny?
Our destinies, they are so closed to each other like a lot of families
Sometimes I just want to die
Cuz sometimes even thugs cry!