UC Briganté - How I Feel [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

My life, my life
There's alot about me you don't know
You only see what I choose to show

I left my house when I was 13
Just a little lebo with some big dreams
Just a little rebel on them rough streets
I learned a whole lot of shit from the backseat

Meanwhile, grandma dying and she need somebody
I look around I dont see nobody
Ain't it funny? moments that make u wonder
Reconsider your thoughts on people that you admire

My high school teacher was a liar
Told me I ain't shit well I guess it backfired
Cause I dropped out, and home schooled
Then graduated on my own, bitch f**k you
I'm from the bad side of town
My cousins are locked down
So who do I look up to?

Speaking no lies, if my eyes testified they'd be making yours cry
All the shit that i've seen
The scars on my body, you don't know what they mean
...But I'm giving u hope
I'm letting u know
You ain't gotta stand on the corner selling that dope
I used to be with them folks
I know what it feels like receiving a call
With coppers on the other line tapping ur phone
They shot at my dawg
They murdered my cousin I got this hate in my heart
I got a lot of pain I ain't delt with it all
And who the f**k supplied my brother first?
The reason he's schizophrenic and mentally in a hearse

Broken hearts and broken homes
Burnt bridges and rolling stones
Blasting Lesane through my headphones
This is the realest shit I ever wrote

Second guessing myself
Sacrificed for the wealth
The smell of the reefer, bad for my health
I feel the reaper coming, what else?
I just gotta make it unnastan me?
Blood makes you related and loyalty makes you family
Im setting trends, I'm turning gangstas into gentlemen
I can't believe what I'm witnessing
This generation of men is so feminine

Theres a tug of war going on within me
I'm at war with myself, lord forgive me
I'm trying to run from the dark side
And still trying to figure where my heart lies
Some boys hit the gym and talk a whole lot of shit
Well come take this weight off my shoulder then if you 'lift'
My brother seeks destruction, my sister seeks attention
But all they really want is just love and protection
So I pray you don’t wreck yourself
And please girls respect yourself...check yourself

Apologizes I never received
You can keep the memories
Started young & naive but now Im frozen
You can’t break a heart that’s already broken
But you can have the last laugh cause I've been laughing from the start
You on the outside of an inside joke...funny huh?
So lets be nothing, I heard that last's forever
And in the meantime…become better

Some people ruin your mood when they come around
Make sure the hand your holding ain’t holding you down
Feel free to feel free, my 2 cents is priceless, guaranteed
You'll never find another
I'm the author of the book that gets judged by the cover
And if you took your time to study me in advance
You’d see what I’m trying to teach is
If you stumble, make it part of the dance

Cause see they told me I was destined to fail
My city would rather see a lebo in jail
They smile in my face say they wishing me well
But deep in their heart I know they wishing me hell

Time keeps slippin' like a villain
The answers are written but who will listen?
I hope that I'm forgiven for the sinning that I do while I am living
Being alone was my decision. Making friends was never the mission
I'm writing my future so baby this is history that i've written

Blood of a slave, heart of king
Free yourself, I’ll take you under my wing
Against all odds I let the truth be known
This be the realest shit i ever wrote
And when they see me they just show me respect
Cause until I breathe my very last breath
I'mma real lebo to the death you know…