Viarritz - Wishing [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

How did you know where to find me
I thought I was hiding
Thought it was confining
I'm out of my mind and you're always beside it
The empty space
Yeah you override it
And I'm getting whited
Yeah I'm getting blanked while
You're outside of the world, with your fake smile
And I just don't know what to do with your take outs
Hand me downs and leftover pain now
And I'm so confused
Dunno what to do
You left me alone, battered and bruised
But I couldn't blame you
No, I couldn't choose
You as the fault
Man you have no clue
What you did
Why'd you go and do this
I said I didn't care then but you know what the truth is
Yeah, you know what the truth is
You always knew what the truth was
I don't know who you were trying to fool
But nobody got it, no one but your tool
That twisted L
He's one to kiss and tell
I don't know what you wished, but I wished you well
Yeah, well look how far wishing got me
Blank with no paternal property
And I wish you could hear these words right now
With hopes they'd set that black pipe down
And bring you back out of the ground
Make it so you were back around
Make it so she wasn't an alcoholic
And wasn't always bringing herself down
You were the key
The answer
The secret
To bringing life back to what we would see fit
Instead you lost you and lost all the pieces
And now we're left just trying to keep this
Life moving forward but I'm taking steps back
I'm tryna stay balanced, but I'm falling off track
I'm slippin' and tumbling, not staying intact
I know you wanted a lot but you wouldn't want that
No, you wouldn't want that
I know you wouldn't want that
You had such big dreams -- ambitions
I remember when you thought that I wasn't listening
You sit there and you'd list em
I just hate to see that you missed em
As I sit here and shed a tear
Thinkin about our time, year after year
How you taught me lessons, more depressing
While I'm watching my mom's stressing
Knowing that when you were here, it wasn't like this
Now I gotta grab a bullet and bite it
Grit my teeth through every action that I see her make
Wishin you were here to fix everything that you let break
But when you dipped, you left more behind than you know
You weren't meant to be all on your own
You should've forgotten that life -- left it alone
Instead you let sleep's cousin give you the bone
And I know you're in your own zone now
Got a new place to call home now
But I just wish one more thing before I go out
Please dad, guide me as I grow now