Bayonet - Nightmare [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

Is this oppression or obsession
With a life that I can't come to terms with
Is this karma or is it payback
All from some unknown resentment
Cause I just want to know myself
Oh I just want to love myself

Like an addict to a vein I want something to
Blind me from the emptiness and pain
So what's the point to all this mess?
Want a face worth shaving
Want a soul worth saving

I keep an arms length
Distance from my lovers cause my father
You know what he made me
I'll never be set free

And can you really tell me that
You know the person you lie in bed with
All their secrets when they feel pathetic

And it's our hope to feel that close
I try and
I try and
I try and
I try and I don't!

Everybody wants to believe
That their life is really filled with meaning
When will I be free

I wish I could, wish I could say everything
That I feel without judging
Who I was in my eyes
Cause then I just might disguise
Speak with honesty, set my own heart free

Just like I said before
Is it worth even keeping score
Cause everything that I ever did was a miss

I really wish that I was better than this
I still want something that I probably won't get
It doesn't matter who you are at the start
It matters who you are when everything falls apart

I live my life like I'm going to hell
So when I get there I won't feel like I failed
From heights, through the lights
At least I'll know what just hit me

A simple point, a simple fact
That I can't take my words with me