CurlE - Wonder [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1: CurlE]
Wonder why I'm here
Fighting through them tears
These written rhymes realize blue skies near
For a moment, lose grasp, never do I hold it
The clouds roll back like waves crash from the ocean
And I'm hoping, the bullshit I deal with will balance out
To leave me with a cheek to cheek grin stating that I'm happy now
I ain't happy now I'm dealing with the stress
Of fiending to be the best
Best believe me I'm bringing the best
Every single thing I spit is a little piece of me I give
I guess it's just make believe to believe life ain't shit
With the heartache and the sadness
Breaking off the mask when
It looks worth the risk but the fucking odds are stacked against it
You pick up your mask
Build up your walls
Never looking back
People fuck em all
I'm coming off with a lack of apathy
It has to be like that only gaf about me till I get my life back
Get my mind back
Or get that time that
I wasted waiting and chasing trying to get your eyes back
Time lapse but it's all the same shit
Girls with different names but the pain's the same, I admit
So I drink another fifth, I'm numb to the pain
I can feel you on my lips, so now I'm chugging the thing
Drunken defeat..
I wonder when the fuck death's finally coming for me

[Hook: CurlE]
This is my life in the script of the song
If I ever fucking die this is my suicide note
Take a look at the sky, it stays as grey as they come
Take a look at my life, this is my suicide note
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