Fiphel - Consumed [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1: Fiphel]
Now a lot of you are probably wondering where I am
Just know I wasn’t kidnapped, this ain’t some sort of scam
First of all I miss you, this may seem sort of wrong
But I hope that most of you don’t even notice that I’m gone
I don’t want a single person shedding any tears
Just go on with life, like I was never here
You never even met me, so I never caused you harm
I never made you cry, and you never slit your arm
And instead of me you met a handsome loving guy
Who did all the things for you that I could only try
He made all of you happy, he never told a lie
He never left your side, when you just wanted to die
He never got annoyed at you, even deep inside
He knew what to do, at any place, any time
He even explained to you the how and the why
And you could clearly see God in his eyes
I hope that God replaces me, with that sort of friend
Who’s there for the women and a leader for the men
Enjoy life while you can before it ends
Don’t remember me or even think of me again

[Verse 2: Fiphel]
So back to what happened, and why I’m not around
And why there isn’t any body to put in the ground
Here’s a little story, so you can understand
Who, what, when, why, and where I am
Those last few months I was constantly writing
That’s why we didn’t speak much after that one night when
I irritated you again, with all of my questions
I just wanted to help, guess I should have learned my lesson
Regardless, my shrink says I fell back into depression
I think my cynicism may have gave her that impression
But I was just fine, maybe I stopped caring
About my words and actions, or what I was wearing
But I was spitting rhymes like never before
Complicated cadences with clever retorts
Some of it was serious, some of it was weird
But it was all a waste, ‘cause one day I disappeared
The cops told my parents I probably ran away
But everyone who knew me knew that there was just no way
At first no one at school noticed I was missing
But no one even cared so nobody would listen
It’s only been a week, already I’m a joke
Told behind the backs of those, who would choke
The life out of anyone who mocked my departure
If you only knew me, maybe laughing would be harder
”We’ve all had chances, now they’ve all vanished”
I think, as I dangle from this bridge, in a panic
As I strain against the frigid chains
Trying not to let the pain take over my brain
The lighter fluid’s vile and nauseating scent
Sends chills through me, makes my gut clench
I scream past my instinct for self defense
Flick the lighter on, suddenly the stench
Of my own burning flesh shatters my resolve
As I fall I unleash a dying desperate call
Nobody can hear my cry except for God
And I already told Him that this death is what I want
I’m truly alone and with my dying breath
I apologize for being such a nervous wreck
My personality is only one of my regrets
I dedicate to rap all that I have left

[Verse 3: Fiphel]
The raging sensation in my muscles was replaced
By a frigid wind that ate away at my face
I tried to look up, realized I was blind
I felt an all too familiar presence in my mind
He spoke to me, he said “Welcome to my home
There’s millions here with you, everyday we’re growing”
I replied “Others? Then how come I’m alone?”
He chuckled to himself and he handed me a phone
I couldn’t sense his presence anymore but I knew
He was watching me, he wanted to see what I would do
I was betting he would only give me one call
So I dialed home and left this message for you all
Just so you would know, that I chose this for myself
I sold my soul to rap, it’s too late for you to help
Just burn all of our memories, it’s time to say farewell
And I pray that when you see me next, YOU won’t be in hell…

[Hook: Fiphel]
I’ve been consumed by hell