Jjay - Therapy [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1]
Before I push myself off of this cliff
He takes it off of his hip
She in the back start sparking a spliff
I just wanna say something at the tip of my tongue
But its difficult. No matter the strokes, it won't come
Make jokes & have fun
But its hard to joke when stressin' and depression comes and you find your own brain in a slum
Too much pressure. I'm only 18
With life decisions to make, and people bashing my dreams
It really ain't what it seems
My life ain't all that
And reality calling, but I just cannot call back
And I feel like I'm alone
This a one way lane
Sorry ma for spazzing out, man I'm just going insane
Do y'all hear what I'm saying?
I'm in an adolescent body
Another teen dies, I visualize my autopsy
Probably, gonna get less, of a rest
If I wanna be able to say "success". God Bless

[Verse 2]
Feelings like this, it comes and it goes
Chillin' with the bros all reciting Subtle Flows
But ain't nobody knows, I'm feeling so alone
Not physically but mentally what's weighing on my dome
When I write this song, I'm searching for spiritual healing
I was never the too good with expressing my feelings
"Actions speaks louder than words" that's all I'm hearin'
But words is all I got, this is why I write these lyrics
Sometimes I fight these lyrics, find my identity
But ppl won't let me be, I'll get out this eventually
I caught myself doing things that I wouldn't do ever
Sometimes you gotta break down just to pull it together
Can't say the thought of suicide never grazed my head
But I can't live out my own destiny, being dead
With that said, just let me live free here
Cause sometimes, I wake up and I don't wanna be here........
I'm afraid of what the future holds
The future holds a chrome straight aimed to my dome
I feel like all my friends going out far
Study in colleges universities abroad
I feel like they off to do bigger and better things
& I remain in the city and I'm just gon' stay the same
And man, I'm going through stress just like no other
Tryna live up to the potentiality of my brother
He's out doing neuroscience, that's not me though
Cause I can't make it like Dwight at the freethrow
Line, but its fine, all I needs a little time
Cause even on the new moon, the other side shines
Sometimes I swear my mind's much older
& people don't understand so I get a cold shoulder
Don't even know who I am anymore
RIP to the person that I used to know