Jus Daze - Andy Dufresne (Ambition) [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

I have memories that hurt my stomach when I think about em
Thoughts that make me more afraid than horrors that I've seen
My reality is worse than your nightmares
Right...like you even give a slight care
I become alive in the night, (yeah)
With shit that haunts my mind
And makes my gut twist; I tuck lips
Cause music moves my soul and lyrics touch my heart
And sew me together when my emotions tear me apart
It takes me places, that I've never been and I'm bound to go
And people who impose are only hindering their own
Believe in me when I'm nothing and you'll be there when I'm something
In a field of dreams, where when it rains, it pours and I'm sunken
I hate the hate, but without the hate, then I'm nothing
The same ones that pull your card are the same ones bluffin
And old girls that wouldn't date you now are blushin
It's ABSolute time for me to crunch in
And far as time go, make sure you own yours or relucant-
Ly have not enough to be successful or too much of it
We Love havin sex, but Hate Loving
And problems are the answers depending What you take from it
See
I find it a compliment when those with accomplishments
Start poppin shit, about your confidence
And when you drop hit...shit, they don't acknowledge it
Cause prides a thick ball of snottiness to be swallowin
Yet someone whose buzzin moderate, they'll let rock a set
And that's bc they're comfortable given chances to those who are not a threat
But me
I walk twice as hard...to earn respect
Literally in steps and in heart that I invest
I'm not claiming to be the best, I just got a story to tell
With half an image that sells and the other half that propels
Me to new heights...that's why when I write, I reach a new nice
And gain fame off of my life where I pay a price
Cause I've hard days...where work sucks and I wanna snap
That's called real life...cause in reality I wanna rap
But I'm a working man, facts
Earning meals without snacks
Tryin to reach my goals defending my post without kickin back
So it's hard not react
When every kid that I pass
Taps his mom and he asks
Why does walk like that?
Lookin back....
Do you know what that makes me feel inside?
To be alive on stage, yet wanna be concealed and hide????
It's like being speared alive and being looked in the eyes
While your're dying with disgrace as if you kneeled and died
Why...
Is mediocrity being oversold
And nobody cares about the quiet man holding gold?
Stayin humble and taking small steps proves my point
That in time, you'll never be overhyped and disappoint
Like most...and be considered another lame
If the rules don't apply to you, then reinvent the game
At times, I have quiet reminders that I'm sane
And no matter what they say, there's no reason for me to change
Cause I've already changed others thru myself
So if I change what changes others, how does changing that help?
I feel the wave of stayin current and creating stability
But the wind blows whatever direction regardless if they feelin me
Cause no matter what, in due time, most of them are killing me
The spotlight light loses Watts before it does the MC...
The spolight loses what? before it does the mc...
Cause the spotlight loses watts before it does the Mc....