Jus Daze - Comfort of Comforters [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

A crippled individual, whose gifts are beyond lyrical
Can't prohibit physical; thoughts u call me in critical
Emotions where your mind state isn't pivotal...it's pitiful...

I wrote this rhyme 2 in the morning in my car
Drunk all alone just staring at the stars
Unaware of who I was, outside the bar
Unfamiliar faces & nobody knows who you are
But
The reason i started writing this rhyme
Was cause I going thru a kinda difficult time
I found myself gaining fame
But losing loved ones
I feel like nobody knows what it's like becoming "someone"
Plus i kinda wish i had a trust fund
Cause working check to check makes money add up to none
With no HMO & No healthcare
I'm Too proud to beg or be on welfare
So...
I wonder if I kill myself
Would it equal a trip to hell with a clean bill of health?
Would anyone even care?
Or be sad if I wasn't there?
I don't have the balls to ask people so i wouldn't dare
I wanna enjoy the comfort of comforters in summer
In an air conditioned room with a beautiful woman lover
But..I never trusted women as much as I trust my mother
And even 100% I fully couldn't trust her//
I feel like I'm too coward to kill myself
And too afraid to ask for help on how to heal myself
But I ain't afraid to die
And that shit ain't a lie
Its just part of the reason why
I continued writing this rhyme
At 3:30
Cause to let go of hurting
Depression leaves, I grieve but it keeps resurfacing
I can't front, I'm tryin to snap out of it
Cause for every ounce of happiness
I feel a deeper sadness
I guess I'm sick & twisted in your eye
And tomorrow is full of sorrow and tear filled as I cry
And bring a new day in
Cause I believe in God, but that also means I believe in Satan
And he always tries to find a way in
If the kitchen is hot, my hand's on the stove (while it's) flaming
Pain is real, that's why the truth hurts
Whats valuable to me, to others has no worth
Like myself
I feel privileged to be on earth
But if I die, I'll feed the planet as I rot under dirt
So am I worth more dead or alive?
Does even matter?
Should I try to survive?
I said I believe in God, so I'm hoping there's a heaven
And I ain't fuck up too bad so I can (still) get in
Maybe I'm forgetting...
The sun is rising on the East
But in the rest of the world it just set in

*Note: The Cover was inspired by a fan from overseas (Shahryar Sabouri) who got the inspiration from me being half Iranian. He said that he took a picture of me off Google and modified it to look like a pseudo-marble like statue and place you over the Azadi Tower in Iran, since I'm half Persian and despite my handicap, I stand tall like the great monument with my message in the next album (Walk Twice As Hard)