MEF - Venting [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

I try to breathe hoping I can see
Not trying drown in lies when God is all I believe
Love causes problems
Life line at the bottom
Been through childhood, trying to handle my teen years
In my eyes I represented fear
Look at me now and all you'll see is I don't care
Struggling and down my eyes are tears
Sick of seeing the fake happiness
And feeling real scared....

Its like no matter what it don't matter
Loved a girl named Christina
Saw her recently but her emotions got me sadder
She took a glance and hardly recognize
The little bit, she placed in this guy
Fuck it though, you my family, no
I've been following for so long
And your oscar show deserves a bravo
Amazing all the pain I caged in
So I cut and release, sharp as an asian
Dam I'm fading, from existence
Loving girls but wife types kept they distance
Sick of being lucky
The flu ignorance.....

I could probably be better
But I feel so much pressure
Like wearing a sweater in hot weather
A pirate searching years for treassure
This venting doesn't give me pleasure

How could you dare say you know me
When all you are is my homie
Said you down but hardly around
Thats why I'm always fucking lonely
Thanks a bunch
Doubt I'll enjoy my lunch
This is fucked up in so many ways
I started smoking again on the low
But Lydia said quit it right away
I just started listening
To that voice in the sky
Dad your so dam high
Wonder will God make me fly
And mama I' sorry I've been a dumb guy
I cry in the dark
Because I swear in the light of things
I lost, I'm lost in the dark