[XEL]
I said, fuck life, I can't even get no piece
Not for a moment at all until I hit those streets
So when I lay upon the sunny San Fransisco beach
Always had to bite your tongue until you chipped your teeth
When I leave up out of this life, I maybe just go sleep
But it's in-evitable, you gotta lift your feet
And get nowhere in this world when it throws you in a twirl
You just hold onto your girl and she kiss your cheek
Said she with you in the ocean now but it's so deep
And baby, we ain't making progress, we tiptoe-creep
Around the subject, feeling like the love left
I put away the drugs, yes, but now I go and flip those sheets
Still waking up to nothing so I take another fucking pill
And they say "Gabe, you kinda crazy", I just hate that there is nothing real
And the wait's enough, it's crushing still, never in my life
Felt this low but it's so late that I be up until... the next day
Making these stupid damn songs, hoping somebody will press play
Trying to carve a little path for us, have to trust
That there's room up there with God, have they already packed the bus?
Life ?? to come together to be miraculous
Burning away, turning to gray, it's all just ash and dust
Still got family but they're tired of me
I understand, I'm always panicking, but I was diagnosed with anxiety
What the fuck am I supposed to do?
The best I got right now is to just not even be close to you
A loonybin reject, sorry that I'm damaged
They say "I know what it's like", man, you don't hardly understand this
Staring in the mirror isn't easy for me
And it isn't for anybody that believes what they see
I see a piece of garbage liar that can't even be free
I crack a smile half a mile wide but it's cheesy to be
So fraudulently happy, these chemicals are flowing
Inside of my veins, I'm not there like the wind when it's blowing
I don't wanna make it out of this, it's the end of the show
There ain't no man in my soul, the pinnacle's low
And I'm finished, I'm going off the deep end
And they say "Are you okay?" well, I guess it all depends
Pain inside of my chest, it was so shallow, now it's deep in
I'm reaching, wake me up, I hope I'm dreaming
Thinking back to when I spoke with demons
Looking for my soul, it's open season
Let me just make sure I know I'm breathing
So tell me what's the point when you're living in hell
And this ain't even my bedroom, it's a prisoner's cell
And everyone that's around me say "he isn't himself"
But then them same damn people that wanna give him no help
And I'm looking at my happiness, it sits on a shelf
Giving me some kind of relief, but I'm addicted, oh well...
Fuck it, my dream fell, I will never touch it
Grasp it, love it, really I'm just an acting puppet
I have to crush it, and move on
Nobody cares about the dude's songs, they say that my mood's wrong
Damn... can't do nothing right
Aight, big homie, you can go ahead and cut them lights
A hundred grand wouldn't give back my uncle ?Sam?
I know you're up there looking over me cause you're the fucking man
You would tell me "never fold, there's always another hand
Even if you snap, come back like a rubber band"
I miss you so much that I'm physically in pain
Nobody will let me ever forget that I'm insane
But it's all good now cause you're with me in this grave
?as I hear still ain't no pain?
I'm going off the deep end
And they say "Are you okay?" well, I guess it all depends
Pain inside of my chest, it was so shallow, now it's deep in
I'm reaching, for nothing...
