Clive - Citadel Saboteurs [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

Into the darkness the scars get hidden
But what is forgotten isn’t always forgiven
And what is lost isn’t always given back
So all of these problems aren’t solved by sitting. Stand up
Listen to the tale now this is how it went
A family broken, no one could envision what it meant
Saying they had problems needed solving was an understatement
Undertaken by stress, they had to learn to take it
When they smiled they faked it, the bond they had created had faded
And they knew it when they saw their vision diminish
So they picked up a journal started to write about life
Struggled so much every minute another moment was written in it
Meanwhile work was tough, parents had enough
Pondering the possibility of packing it up
Needed to lift the weight of the world but couldn’t stay
In the whirlwind they were living in so they didn’t get up
Family giving up, handling stress is tough
But why would they want to quit and get everything messed up?
A struggle can always lead to a better day
And it probably would be worth the shot anyway
Tested the limit and in it they found peace
At the least, they knew they’d be ready to face defeat
As a team, but it seems it wasn’t all as it seemed
The family was brought to its knees…
It was a crash course nobody asked for
Fast forward to the present the past is a chore
The last court we played in, the basket was torn
Blame it on life. It’s a contact sport, ain’t it?
The pinnacle of my cynical situation is critical
Spinning round while we’re sitting down getting ill
Bet it will kick us down if we let it build
If we don’t regret it now down the line, you bet we will
If we’d rehearse to see what works
Maybe we could nurse the situation and work things out
But it worsens whenever a person gets hurt
Or even worse does the hurting first and now
We’re running out of compassion we need to get reimbursed
Faster than a person who happens to be insured
I’m observing we don't fix the problem we just fix dinner
The blood in our hearts just grew a little bit thinner
And it’s colder in here than the wind in the winter
As we shiver and get older our skin gets thicker
Get with the program, fall in line
Just ignore it and ensure that it’s all fine all the time
We all climb the fence just to straddle it
Whose guilt will fall first, yours or mine?
Shun the light ‘cause it stuns your eyes
But do you want the sunrise or your son to cry?
‘Cause ultimately you’re covering deep what’s inside
By punishing me for all of the bluffs you hide
So if we’re always last to admit it then who is first
To justify the lies when the truth gets worse?
You can search the closet in the room that’s cursed
Or deposit the blame in God and Lucifer
But when the cards have fallen and this house is gone
Then we’ll all be the ones made to do the work
So I put these feelings under a microscope then into a microphone
I might condone a few white lies but then I might try
To get the truth out and give some sight to the blind
A little CPR to put a spike in our lifelines
I will never quit, never did, ever since a little kid
But what if I did, how would we live?
Plan to escape, run away and abandon this place
To somewhere safe, leaving without a trace
Five years later, the neighbour mentions I’m in the paper
Hey, it’s me! The faded image of a man gone crazy
Broken bones and feet corroded from street stones
Roaming in the cold hoping for heat, see me alone
Weak and old reaching for clothes keeping close
To the shelters, closed off to the world as I melt with the snow
And I know that it’s the end of road
And all I ever did was try seeking a stronghold called home...
No
Can’t let it implode I’ve grown to miss you, haven’t seen your face
To hold and kiss you or to give you tissues when you’d cry
Please, I've seen the future and it’s bleak
Why don’t we sit down, listen and we can speak
I caught a monster in the darkness of my closet
And I fought it, now I’m watching over my shoulder just hoping
It’ll walk away, but how can it walk away
When the monster is me?