(alex)Slander - The Last Days Of High School [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

She was a curious beauty with an eye on yours truly
Saw me on top of the hill and thought "who's he?"
Band t-shirts with a denim jacket
Half of a haircut
Studs and patches
Attracted like magnets
Had to take action
Pulled out the pack and offered me a cigarette
With a face like that, I have no objections
Take a seat, let's talk for a second
And so it began, the after class chats
She makes me confident
And I make her laugh
She thinks I'm crazy
And I think she's cute
But I didn't think enough
She was right, I'm a fool
I was too young, thoughtless, ignorant, and cruel
She was too accepting of the fact
That I was wasting the days that we could have spent together in heaven
Pretending she was anything less than perfection

She was an earth-bound angel born without a halo
And I'm starting to think that I may have aimed low
The soul is in pain and it wants me to say no
The mind is insane and it wants me to lay low
If I could bide my time and ride this disguise
She'll never realize that I'm truly insatiable
Because the attention I'm getting
It tends to fend of the depression and it keeps me stable
I'm gonna be %100 A-okay someday
When the painkillers take hold
But at the moment I'm just hoping
That this broken soul is still in need of a shoulder
So I took her hand and I asked her to dance
She was wrapped up in another mans plan
Told me to wait and she'd give me a chance
But the next day the man left and never came back

Now she's gone and I wonder if she misses me
I've never felt so flooded with insecurity
I'm sure she thinks about us just as much as me
Because everyday I'm on this damn bus with an empty seat
She's strong
She'll heal eventually
It won't be long before she starts to move on
I'm here to help her get past this regression
Maybe this time i'll leave my positive impression
When the arms of obsession loosen their grasp
I'll be right here to take you up by the hand
I'll be right here to help you deal with the past
I'll be right here to help you sort out these facts
Because I was by your side the day your heart died
Saw it killing you inside so I helped you get by
Summer was long and the tears ran dry
Now the pain is gone and it's my time to shine
Winter arrived and the hopes were high
But I heard today you're with a brand new guy
And I'm left wondering why am I the second in line
Was I the only one trying this whole time?
When did you forget about those restless nights
When I lied to your parents and you slept in my bed
It makes me feel like you just needed a place to go
And I was the only guy too nice to say no

Ya know what?
Fuck it
Guess my head's a mess again
Looks like I'd better patch and mend
The wound so it won't infect and then
Leave me without any friends
Stranded on this planet with my sorrow
If I'm lucky god will reach down and crush the shell I borrowed
Forget my body, I don't need it to keep thinking
Just leave me arms and bottle so I can continue drinking
Give me a wall to stare at it and I will learn to care for it
Love it when it needs me and hate it when it leaves me
I'm not proud but sadly it's reality
I act strong but I need you so badly
I'm not proud but sadly it's reality
I lied, all I think about at night is you leaving me
Waking in a cold sweat
Eyes filled with salt
And all I wanna do is roll over and give you a call
But it's late and you're probably sleeping
Dreaming about the dead
So Imma tough this one out and go back to bed