XZaR - Happiness [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Intro: Talking]
XZaR..
You ever feel like..
You just can't be happy..
No matter what you do?.. Me too

[Hook]
When one thing in life seems to fuck up
Then everything else starts to crush
Us
This feeling of help, I've had enough of
I just want to be happy

[Verse 1]
When did a smile become a luxury?
Did somebody vow just to fuck with me?
Cause suddenly everything around me is crumbling
When shit was just good, I mean how the fuck did this come to be?!
Is god trying to punish me? cause my girl stopped loving me
Friends are not company, pops got another seed
And mom's just struggling while I'm here suffering
Cause these are all the things that I gotta keep juggling
It's been a while now and shit ain't looking up for me
But way too many times I've given up with ease
And I can't do it.. no, I won't do it
Cause I know there's a reason I have to go through this
At least, that's what it says in my belief
But from what I can see, there isn't any prize for me
Just more driving me to make that suicidal leap
Stare death's face just to say, who am I to cheat?!
That's when that little voice, inside of me decides to speak
Xavier, you don't know how devastated lives will be
If you try to leave, are you really that selfish?
I'm sorry, I don't know where my damn help is

[Hook]

[Verse 2]
But I guess that's too much to ask
I'm so tired of being misery's punching bag
They always say you gotta appreciate what you have
Well does that still apply to people who have nothing grasped?
Just for once, I would love to live problem free
In this economy and finally got the job I seek
Pay all the college fees, maybe a little drop for me
Have a social life and stop being a psychotic teen that's-
Locked in a box it seems, so I jot all my thoughts and dreams
That were plotting subconsciously trying to block what my eyes have seen
I guess what I'm really asking is perfection
Well excuse me a moment while I bask in it's rejection
I understand struggle is a part of life
But why the fuck does it have to be so hard to fight?!
I thank with all my might I'm born with an artist's sight
Cause being a christian doesn't always bail you through the darkest nights
But if it wasn't this, I wouldn't have bars to write
So maybe this fucked up shit is something I'll start to like
For a change, instead of always trying to doubt shit
But if happiness forgets you, never forget about it

[Hook: X2]